WAITING SHADE

"No regrets, just love"

2011-07-19T15:05:00.008+08:00

Its been a while. Hindi ko masabing na miss ko ang pagba-blog kasi ive given up blogging eons ago (thus mga repost at vids lang lately); maybe lost of inspiration, simply put it: i had enough siguro of sharing myself. Plus the fact that i noticed na ambobo ko na mag ingles or worse hindi na ako magaling mag come up ng kaiga igayang mga pangungusap o talata. pero hindi ko naman masara itong blog na ito since i really love this blog, WAITING SHADE, kaya palagi ko paring nilalagyan kahit ng kung ano ano na lang just for the blog to stay afloat. Kasi ba naman, this was my companion nung sobrang hurt ako, nung mag isa lang ako, mga panahong sasabog ang puso ko. Pero kahit ganun pa man, wala akong pagsisisi kung anuman ang mga nangyari sabi nga ni Katy Perry "No regrets, just love". Totoo at may punto si Katy dun.

Paano nga ba nagsimula itong Waiting Shade... Literary project kasi dapat itong Waiting Shade, hmmm. Kumbaga isasalaysay ko yung mga love stories ng buhay ko at kung ilang beses ako naghintay nang naghintay sa wala rin palang patutunguhan. Yung pangalan ng blog was derived from an english lecture noong high school pa ako. Yung teacher nag pa spelling quiz and one of the items na pina spell nya ay WAITING SHED. Some answered as WAITING SHADE, siguro they mean na pag nagwait doon may Shade. May logic naman sila diba? Hehe. Since ive been waiting all my life for that love story na nakasentro sa akin and to Someone, Ive named my blog Waiting Shade, Shade being the one im waiting for and I renamed my online self CLOUD. Cloud and Shade, oha, sakto.

Then came this cover song from Tina Arena: "So Far Away" which ultimately became my favorite song. The song came from her Album "Songs of Love and Loss". Since i loved the song and was inspired by it, i borrowed her album title and refashioned it as "Tales of Love and Loss" which ultimately became my blog description.

This was supposed to be a secret blog, pero since sinara ko na yung original blog ko, eto ang napagbuntunan ng aking mga istorya, love stories full of sadness and loss. Pero siguro naman when we talk about love, im quite sure kasama nya ang salitang loss. kasi may mga pagkakataon talaga na kahit gaano ang pagmamahal may nawawala rin, may nababawasan, may nalalagas. Pag nagmahal nga yata kasi may nadadagdag sa pagkatao ngunit sa madalas may nawawala din.

So ayun ang dapat sanang Literary project ko tungkol sa mga nabigong love stories ko dati, na overwhelm ng nabigong love story ko sa kasalukuyang panahon. Kung babaliktanawin ang mga unang entries ko medyo madudugo at puno ng sakit. pero sa palagay ko ha, magaling ako magsulat pag extreme na sadness, in comparison sa blog post na ito which is inconsistent at taglish pa. Kakatakot na rin magpost kasi lately ng english kasi kakahiya sa mga magagaling sa English.

Anyhow ang namiss ko ay ang gumawa ng kanta, kahit hindi naman ako ganun kagaling talaga, nagpapanggap lang na marunong.

Ayun hanggang dito na lang muna. Minsan ikwento ko siguro ang aking morning routine. hindi interesting pero medyo makabuluhan. lol

BTW may bubwit na patakbo takbo sa harap ko. haha. kakatuwa. bilhan ko sya ng rat trap maya. lagot sya.

Nakalimutang Pag-ibig sa Tag-ulan

2011-06-25T12:43:00.001+08:00

Ni Minkhail 14.03.10

Paano nga ba umibig ang hangin ng tag-ulan?
Banayad o marahas na pagsuyo sa bulaklak ng kalupaan.
Saan nya iniuukit ang pusong hindi mahagip
Hindi naman para laging langit
Minsan ang pag-ibig parang hangin
Humahagupit.

Kung ang lahat ay may dahilan
Kailangan pa bang sabihing ang pag-ibig
Ay hanging hindi nakikita, di mapipigilan
Hindi pwedeng hawakan, ngunit nararamdaman
Pagkat pag ikaw ay lumisan, mapigtas sa pagkakatangan
Tiyak na ang hanging amihan, hindi tatahan.

Paano nga kaya umibig ang ulap sa ulan
Hindi niya kayang hawakan siya ng walang hanggan
Darating ang umaga, kailangan bitiwan
Aasa sa init ng pag-ibig, na ang ulay muling iangat
Mula sa basang pisngi ng lupang uhaw sa kanyang yakap

Kung ang paghihiwalay ay may dahilan
Parang proseso ng buhay, paulit ulit, walang paalam
Ngunit, bakit ang ulap lagi ang naghihintay
At umaasang ulan ay makamtan
Sa kabila ng kanyang paghihintay, iiwanan din naman.

Sa paghihiwalay ng ulap at ulan
Sa pagsamyo ng bulaklak sa banayad na hangin
Alam mo na ba ang kahulugan ng pag-ibig?
Wala sa ulap, ulan o hanging malamig.
Nasa pusong nagbibigay lamang ng walang kapalit.

Sumilip na ang araw
Hinaplos na ng hangin
Ang bulaklak na marikit
Nagparaya na ang ulap
Upang unos ay di mamalagi

Masaya ka ba?
Na hindi natin nakita ang bahagharing dulot ng napigilang unos?
Na hindi natin naramdaman ang ligayang dulot ng hanging amihan?
Na ikaw ang ulang hindi na babalik sa ulap ng kalangitan?
Na akoy talagang hangin lamang, na hindi mo nakikita
Na hindi mo naramdaman o kayay binigyang halaga?

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Repost

Ansabe

2011-06-16T15:04:00.002+08:00

I hate you. Dahil iniwan mo ako. I love you kahit iniwan mo ako. Galit ako dahil may nanloloko, may mga masasama. Nagmamahal ako kahit may manloloko, kahit may masasama. Sa bawat dahil, may mabubuti o masasama. Sa bawat kahit, may tama o mali. Sinong dapat humusga? Sinong may karapatan para humusga?

-Reign Santana

Araw Araw

2011-06-16T10:37:00.001+08:00

Ikaw na lang lagi nakikita ko araw araw. Sana gabi gabi din. Lol

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Tears and Fears

2011-06-06T12:08:00.001+08:00

Tears and fears and feeling proud,
Say "I love you" right out loud.
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
I've looked at life that way.
But now old friends are acting strange.
They shake their heads and say I've changed.
But something's lost when somethings gained
Living everyday.

I've looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall.
I really don't know life at all.

Dear Puma Shoes,

2011-05-31T10:28:00.000+08:00

Dear Puma Shoes,

Like na like kita dati nung nakadisplay ka sa SM. Ok ilang buwan kitang pinagmasdan at hinangaan. Bago ako nagsimulang magwork binili kita, kasi hiningi ni Kuya ko yung pinakamamahal kong black and red Adidas. Alam mo kasi yung Adidas na yun ay binili ko kasama si Agripina so may memorable moment na naka attach yun sa akin. Tanda ko pa na naka balat na sapatos ako nun, at buong araw na akong naglalakad sa kalakhang Makati. So nung nagkita kami ni Agripina sa Makati, sinabihan ko siya na kailangan kong bumili ng rubber shoes kasi sakit na ng paa ko, tapos ikot kami sa Landmark at ayun, andun si Adidas at nakadisplay. eh bakit ko siya ibinigay, mabait ako. haha. Anyway, may itatanong lang sana ako sa iyo Puma. Napakaimportante nitong tanong na ito. Eto na.

“Ilang beses ba kita dapat isintas? Ha? Ha? Ha?”

Nakakainis kasi laki ng tyan ko nahihirapan akong yumuko at isintas ka ng hindi lang isa kundi maraming beses sa isang araw. Mahigpit naman lagi ang pagkakabuhol ko. Hindi kita maintindihan talaga. Ayun lang, baka palitan na lang kita pag nakaipon ako ng pera.
Sabi nga ng isa kong kaibigan. “Sensya na tsong, pero tangina…”. Bakit pag siya ang nagsasabi ng mura cute. Lol

Hehe. Behave ka na please.
Nagmamahal,
Ulap

King of Anything

2011-05-31T08:48:00.002+08:00

King Of Anything"

Oh (oh oh oh)
Oh (oh oh oh)
Oh (oh oh oh)
Oh (oh oh oh)

Keep drinkin' coffee
Stare me down across the table
While I look outside

So many things I'd say if only I were able
But I just keep quiet
And count the cars that pass by

You've got opinions, man
We're all entitled to 'em
But I never asked

So let me thank you for time
And try to not waste any more of mine
Get out of here fast

I hate to break it to you babe
But I'm not drowning
There's no one here to save

Who cares if you disagree
You are not me
Who made you king of anything
So you dare tell me who to be
Who died
And made you king of anything

Oh (oh oh oh)
Oh (oh oh oh)
Oh (oh oh oh)
Oh (oh oh oh)

You sound so innocent
All full of good intent
You swear you know best

But you expect me to
Jump up on board with you
Ride off into your dellusional sunset

I'm not the one who's lost
With no direction oh
But you won't ever see

You're so busy makin' maps
With my name on them in all caps
You got the talkin' down just not the listening

And who cares if you disagree
You are not me
Who made you king of anything
So you dare tell me who to be
Who died
And made you king of anything

All my life
I've tried
To make everybody happy while I
Just hurt
And hide
Waitin' for someone to tell me it's my turn
To decide

Oh (oh oh oh)
Oh (oh oh oh)
Oh (oh oh oh)
Oh (oh oh oh)

Who cares if you disagree
You are not me
Who made you king of anything
So you dare tell me who to be
Who died
And made you king of anything

Who cares if you disagree
You are not me
Who made you king of anything
So you dare tell me who to be
Who died
And made you king of anything

Let me hold your crown, babe
Oh oh
Ah

And I like the way your eyes dance when you laugh

2011-05-19T09:16:00.003+08:00

Papasok ako sa trabaho kahapon, as usual naka plug ang earphones ng ipodtouch sa tenga ko, when this song played. Its been years nung last ko yata ito napakinggan. Habang naka-loop yung kanta, na feel ko habang kinikilig sa boses ni Ronan, alam mo yung parang feeling na yung matagal mo nang hinahanap na bagay for years, all of a sudden nakita mo sa isang sulok, andun lang pala sya.

Syet nainlove ako sa kanta. Love, napakailap nun, promise.

=)

I love the way you love me
Boyzone

I like the feel of your name on my lips
And I like the sound of your sweet gentle kiss
The way that your fingers run through my hair
And how your scent lingers even when you're not here

And I like the way your eyes dance when you laugh
And how you enjoy your two-hour bath
And how you've convinced me to dance in the rain
With everyone watching like we were insane

But I love the way you love me
Strong and wild, slow and easy
Heart and soul so completely
I love the way you love me

And I like the sound of old R 'n' B
And you roll your eyes when I'm sloppily off key
And I like the innocent way that you cry
At sappy old movies you've seen thousands of times

Chorus

(Listen to me now)
And I could list a million things
I love to like about you
But they could all come down to one reason
I could never live without you

My Strongest Suit - Reprise

2011-05-16T16:55:00.000+08:00

Amneris:
I may leave a great impression
As I race through a succession
Of the latest crazes, chase the newest fad
I feel better when beguiling
Find that fashion keeps me smiling
But in my heart I know it's rather sad

Aida:
That a life of great potential
Is dismissed, inconsequential

Amneris:
And only ever seen as being cute
So I'll flutter to deceive

Aida:
Oh no you must believe
That one day you're bound to find

Aida/Amneris:
A Stronger Suit

Life's candy and the sun's a ball of butter

2011-04-21T19:24:00.004+08:00

But whether im a rose of sheer perfection
a freckle 0n the nose of lifes complexion
a cinder or the shiny apple of its eye
I gotta fly once
I gotta try once
only can die once, right sir?

Marry You

2011-04-20T20:28:00.001+08:00

Ill go get a ring
let the choir bell sing like Oooh
So what you wanna do
Lets just run girl...

Tanong.

2011-04-13T07:41:00.000+08:00

“Gaano katagal ang kaya mong hintayin para maghintay sa taong hindi naman alam na may naghihintay pala sa kanya?”

- #FB

Down e

2011-04-05T14:45:00.002+08:00

It all started with the talk about android phone applications. My friend and I were texting about gay related application on the android market, he introduced me to applications: BoyAhoy and RomeoLive and just recently I found out that android now supports Grindr too. These sites are of course used for hookups or those searching for something out of the ordinary, not that i need one, but for the fun of it i downloaded from the market. Anyhow, I never really tried BoyAhoy, ive signed up for RomeoLive (App for Planet Romeo) and placed my real photo on it, after just a few moments my inbox started to get busy. People askin if i have a place or can i be their boyfriend and stuff like sex, gimiks, sex and more sex. To no avail I was not that interested thus I brushed it all off.

Well this post aint about android applications but yes this is all about gay networking sites. You see during the course of our fruitful txt exchange, this friend and I, he told me that there was this site where I can actually see online “cam shows”. I wasn’t a stranger with this of course. I was familiar with the website, I used to have an account years ago during the time when a friend who owed me a big sum of money had press released that he was dying (coma) though I oftentimes see his account online, that proved to me the lies, deceit etc etc blah blah blah yada yada yada. Moved on. Anyhow I only knew just recently that a chatroom on this site exists. Due to boredom, I created a new account and boom , I logged in. I have to say there are lots of cute faces in the video chatroom, though I had a cam on my laptop I refuse to join the video chat because I felt ugly. I was just there admiring their beautiful faces and well toned bodies

And then a few days or so after, I logged in once again and whatta a surprise, my college crush who I thought was straight was there barenaked, err on skimpy briefs. Fuck this ought to be a good night, I told myself. I was a sucker for singers and there he was strumming his guitar, while his well toned muscles clearly were displayed via webcam, singing one of my favorite songs which peculiarly he covered and pasted previously on facebook (which I copied and stored, haha). Surprise, surprise! I was smiling all the time, His glorious face was clearly displayed on my laptop screen. I didn’t have the courage to message him, I was afraid of telling him “hey I know you!”. But hell yeah he was the most popular guy in that lobby that night. In that exact moment I opened my webcam and docked him, and guess what he docked me too. Haha. Surprise, surprise! But I never talked to him, the shy me or the “I respect you” me just took over. Me thinks he did recognized me because after sometime he said goodbye and left the chatroom.

Then I started to love Downelink because of him, haha. I had this chance to peek, just a peek in his secret life. Soon, maybe when im hot enough, Ill befriend him once again, I might be ready to tell him “hey I saw you on downelink.” And I just cant forget the words that he typed just recently to another cute videochatter:

****: Foursome tayo tol!

Priceless!

Good Morning Beautiful =)

2011-04-04T09:26:00.001+08:00

Bukas na lang

2011-03-16T09:43:00.001+08:00

Bukas na lang kita mamahalin
Sabay sa paglaya ng ating mga puso
Bukas na lang kita
Mamahalin...

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Tubo

2011-03-06T10:21:00.000+08:00

Tubo, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

Courting

2011-03-05T10:20:00.000+08:00

Courting, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

Sandwich at Pag-ibig

2011-03-04T10:21:00.000+08:00

Sandwich at Pag-ibig, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

"Summer came like Cinnamon, so sweet..."

-Put Your Records On, Corrine Bailey Rae

Flowers for You

2011-03-03T10:49:00.000+08:00

Flowers for You, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

"Flowers for you on this lovely evening..."

"each day with you becomes a valentine..."

-Each Day With You, Martin Nievera

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Over the Bridge or Under the Falling Rain

2011-03-02T10:17:00.000+08:00

Over the Bridge or Under the Falling Rain, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

"oooh someday I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
High above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me."

-Over the Rainbow, Matther Morrison, OST Glee

While ive been trying to make tears disappear...

2011-03-01T10:31:00.003+08:00

The Goodbye Song, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

Time heals all wounds they say
and i should know
coz it seems like forever
but im letting you go...

Youll see Im almost over you...

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found myself listening to this... paulit ulit. paulit ulit. pulit ulit.

Sigh.

Under the Bridge

2011-02-28T10:18:00.000+08:00

Under the Bridge, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

I don't ever wanna feel like I did that day
But take me to the place I love, take me all the way
I don't ever wanna feel like I did that day
But take me to the place I love, take me all the way, yeah, yeah, yeah

-Under the Bridge, Red Hot Chili Peppers

Will we live to greet the dawn?

2011-02-27T10:48:00.000+08:00

Complications, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

Make my wish come true, let darkness fade to light
Show me there's still hope, show me it's not over
Battles we can win, our struggle lies within
Will we live to greet the dawn?
Love will not leave you, hate will not heal you
Promise me one day that peace shall reign...

-Serah's Song, OST Final Fantasy XIII

You love until you dont

2011-02-26T10:46:00.000+08:00

Kapag maputi na ang buhok ko, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

"This is how it works
You're young until you're not
You love until you don't
You try until you can't

You laugh until you cry
You cry until you laugh
And everyone must breathe
Until their dying breath"

-On The Radio, Regina Spektor

Not For Sale

2011-02-25T10:19:00.000+08:00

Not For Sale, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

Ever Ever After

2011-02-24T10:19:00.000+08:00

Ever Ever Ever, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

Been here all along, so why cant you see...

2011-02-23T10:02:00.001+08:00

Been here all along, so why cant you see..., originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you?
Been here all along, so why can't you see?
You belong with me

Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time, how could you not know?
Baby, you belong with me, you belong with me

You belong with me
Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me?

-You Belong With Me, Taylor Swift

Nostalgia

2011-02-22T10:47:00.000+08:00

Nostalgia, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

I'm sorry for everything I've said
And for anything I forgotten to say too
When things get so complicated
I stumble, at best, muddle through

I wish that our lives could be simple
No, I don't want the world, only you
Oh, I wish I could tell you this face to face
But there's never the time, never the place
So, this letter will have to do
I love you

-Amneris' Letter, Shania Twain

Tarapitse

2011-02-21T10:46:00.000+08:00

Tarapitse, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

"Dont try to be strong,no need anymore..."

-A Personal Touch, David Pomeranz

Concrete

2011-02-20T10:22:00.000+08:00

Concrete, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

"I know its been hard, I see how you cried
i can tell that the jagged edge of the road
has cut you deep inside, so dont try and hide
Theres no reason for your heart to bleed...

Someone to kiss you and make it right
what you need is a personal touch tonight...

-A Personal Touch, David Pomeranz

Binhi

2011-02-19T10:43:00.000+08:00

Binhi, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

"Natatandaan mo pa ba
Inukit kong puso sa punong mangga
At ang inalay kong gumamela
Magkahawak-kamay sa dalampasigan
Malayang tulad ng mga ibon
Ang gunita ng ating kahapon..."

-Kanlungan, Noel Cabangon

Pathway No More

2011-02-18T09:19:00.001+08:00

Pathway No More, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?

-Adelle, Chasing Pavements

(Pretty much says everything)

Overshadowed

2011-02-17T10:52:00.000+08:00

Overshadowed, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

And though the odds say improbable
What do they know
For in romance
All true love needs is a chance
And maybe with a chance you will find
You too like I
Overjoyed
Over loved
Over you

Over you...

-Overjoyed, Paolo Santos

Apoy Yan.

2011-02-16T08:24:00.004+08:00

Apoy, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

Girl loves Boy.
Boy loves Girl too but ignores her.
Girl felt sad and lonely, enrolls to gym and met Hunk.
Hunk makes girl smile.
Girl likes hunk. Hunk likes Girl.
Hunk has two girls waiting at home.
Girl sleeps on the sofa as Boy dozes on the comforts of their bed.

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Ganyan kakumplikado ang situation ni Insan. On the rocks na ang relationship niya with her boyfriend but still shes still holding on kasi mahal niya ang tao. Mahal niya. Pero sabi ko naman sa kanya yang pagmamahal na yan is not enough to make you stay sa isang relationship na pasira na at may lamat na. So ang ginawa she tried her best na makahanap ng iba pang rason to keep holding on despite sa araw araw na reklamo na naririnig ko sa mga pinag aawayan nila lately: ang pinakagrabe na siguro ay yung pag ignore ng lalaki to celebrate valentines together with her. Hindi ko naman masabi na pathetic excuse na magtampo si pinsan na hindi siya pinagbigyan ng panahon sa valentines pero sa obvious reasons na sa lahat na lang ng pagkakataon ganun na yata ang ginawa ng Boy.

Kaya sigro hindi ko masisi-sisi si Insan na maging kabit ni Gwapitong Gym Instructor. By fate si Gwaping ang naging Instructor niya sa Popular na Gym. Pinakilala niya itong si Gwapito weeks ago sa akin at ang tanging masasabi ko lang "Para akong nananaginip pag kaharap siya". Oha pag hindi pa naman to the highest heaven ang description na yan ewan ko na. Anyhow, napapasaya niya itong si Insan to the extent na nawawala ang mga worries at problema ni Insan. Kaso may ka live in na itong si Gwaping at may anak na babae. "Apoy yan" ang aking turan sa aking pinsan.

As much as possible im trying to talk sense to her. Ibig kong sabihin nagiging OK na siya sa fact na OK lang na maging kabit siya ni Gwapito at long last na masaya siya, which i think is so wrong. Ang lagi kong sinasabi sa kanya na "OK lang na maging masaya tayo pero not to the extent na may masasaktan tayo." Pero sino ba naman ako para i hinder ang kaligayahan ni Insan. One of these days isusuko na niya ang Bataan sa Gwapito. Sa palagay naman niya daw ay sincere ang lalaki and the sorts. Tinatry ko to fish out information sa sincerity ng lalaki, mukha namang OK. kaso naaawa ako sa asawa at anak ni Pogiboy. Kahapon nga ang tagal ng usapan namin ni Insan tungkol dito kasi tinawagan siya ni Misis kasi nakakatunog na sa kanilang affair. Suskopo eh ilang linggo palang may alam na kagad ang misis. Oh My.

Naguguluhan din ako. Kasi sino ba naman ako na pigilan si Insan at ang Gwaping na maging masaya sa piling ng isat isa. Malamang ang Poging lalaki ay hindi na din masaya sa partner niya. Pero naman kung magpapatali ka tiyakin na siya na talaga. Kaya takot din ako para kay insan kasi nga baka one of these days pag ok na sila ulet ng partner niya eh ibasura na si Insan.

One thing na lagi kong sambit kay insan na. siguraduhin nyang wag syang iiyak dyan dahil alam niya ang ending simula pa lamang. Pero in case umiyak siya andito lang ako. Kasi love ko siya, hindi ko siya iiwan. Pero alam niya na mali, tinatry kong maintindihan. Nakikinig at makikinig ako sa kanyang mga Hinaing sa boyfriend niya at sa tawa saya at uncertainty sa gym instructor niya.

Ewan ko ba basta ang complicated. OK lang maging masaya basta walang masasaktan, sinasaktan o nasasaktang iba. Yun. doon dapat tayo.

Sabi nga sa pelikulang Miss You Like Crazy:

"(Iho) Isa lang ang puso mo. Dapat isa lang ang laman niyan. Kailangang mamili ka, pero pag namili ka, tiyak may masasaktan. Pero hanggang hindi ka namimili pareho mo silang sinasaktan..." - Tatay Temi

-Doctor Love (ayon sa aking bunsong kapatid)

Mithril's Top 25

2011-02-15T08:29:00.003+08:00

1. Forget You - Gwyneth Paltrow / Glee - The Music Vol 4 (2010) / 188 Plays

2. Firework - Katy Perry / Teenage Dream / 73 Plays

3. Poker Face - Idina Menzel & Lea Michele / Glee: The Music Volume 3 / 62 Plays

4. To Sir, With Love - Rachel, Finn, Santana, Mercedes, Artie, Kurt & Tina / Glee: The Music, Journey To Regionals / 54 Plays

5. Defying Gravity -Kurt & Rachel / Glee: The Music, Volume 1 / 48 Plays

6. Bills, Bills, Bills - Darren Criss / The Sue Sylvester Bowl Shuffle / 45 Plays

7. Valerie – Santana / Glee - The Music Vol 4 / 40 Plays

8. My Hands - Leona Lewis / Echo / 35

9. Mahal Kita Kasi - Toni Gonzaga / My Amnesia Girl / 30 Plays

10. Brave - Tawgs Salter / The Vampire Diaries OST / 29 Plays

11. Halo - Beyoncé / I Am...Beyonce / 28 Plays

12. We Belong Together - Mariah Carey / The Emancipation of Mimi / 26 Plays

13. There's a Fine, Fine, Line – Kate Monster / Avenue Q OST/ 24 Plays

14. Auld Lang Syne - The New Years Anthem - Mariah Carey / Merry Christmas II You / 24 Plays

15. Downtown - Emma Bunton / Life In Mono / 23 Plays

16. You’ll Always Find Your Way Back Home - Hannah Montana / Hannah Montana: The Movie Soundtrack / 23 Plays

17. Tears Dry on Their Own - Amy Winehouse / Back to Black / 22 Plays

18. 4 Minutes – Madonna / Celebration / 22 Plays

19. Need You Now – Lady Antebellum / Need You Now / 21 Plays

20. One Less Bell To Answer/A House Is Not A Home - Kristin Chenoweth & Will / Glee: The Music Volume 3 / 21 Plays

21. H.A.T.E.U. - Mariah Carey / Memoirs Of An Imperfect Angel / 21 Plays

22. Valerie - Mark Ronson feat. Amy Winehouse / Version / 21 Plays

23. Tell You Something [Nana's Reprise] - Alicia Keys / As I Am / 17 Plays

24. Intimacy - The Corrs / Talk On Corners / 17 Plays

25. Lucky – Quinn & Sam / Glee - The Music Vol 4 / 17 Plays

Angel Eyeglasses

2011-02-14T10:41:00.001+08:00

Eyeglasses, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

Sometimes I feel like I don't belong anywhere
And it's gonna take so long for me to get somewhere
Sometimes I feel so heavy hearted
But I can't explain 'cause I'm so guarded

But that's a lonely road to travel
And a heavy load to bear
And it's a long, long way to heaven
But I gotta get there

Can you send an angel?
Can you send me an angel to guide me?

-Prelude To A Kiss, Alicia Keys

One last bell to answer

2011-02-13T10:46:00.001+08:00

One last bell to answer, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

Though I try to forget it just can't be done
Each time the doorbell rings I still run
I don't know how in the world
To stop thinking of him
(I should be happy)
'Cause I still love him so
I end each day the way I start out
Crying my heart out...

-One Less Bell to Answer, Kristin C. and Matthew M.

Teardrops

2011-02-12T10:47:00.000+08:00

Teardrops, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

"He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do..."

-Teardrops on my guitar, Taylor Swift

The Chocolate Love Song

2011-02-11T00:36:00.002+08:00

The Chocolate Love Song, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

if you love chocolates like I do,

you better check the video below

and im quite sure it will make you smile. =)

Chocolates!

Let It Be Me

2011-02-10T10:46:00.004+08:00

I Bless The Day, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

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Fell in love with this super cute film Flipped.
Me thinks this line from Chet Duncan, Bryce's Grandpa says what i felt after watching the movie.

"Some of us get dipped in flat, some in satin, some in gloss; but every once in a while, you find someone who's iridescent, and once you do, nothing will ever compare..."

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I found myself playing the ending song "Let it be me" over and over again. Ive heard my Ninang humming to its tune, and im quite sure she knows it because it came from the decade she might felt love for the first time.. I am in love and i do hope that the song translate into my life and someone can claim me and i can really say, Let It be Me.

Valentines is indeed in the air.

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Let It Be Me

Phil Everly
OST Flipped

I bless the day I found you.
I want to stay around you.
And so I beg you, let it be me.

Don't take this heaven from one.
If you must cling to someone.
Now and forever, let it be me.

Each time we meet, Love,
I find complete love.
Without your sweet love,
What would life be?

So never leave me lonely.
Tell me you love me only.
And that you'll always, let it be me.
Say you'll always, let it be me.

If there was you and me

2011-02-09T10:49:00.000+08:00

If there was you and me, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind
'Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

-When there was me and you, Vanessa Hudgens

Cloud, Rain and Rusted Roof

2011-02-08T10:22:00.000+08:00

Cloud, Rain and Rusted Roof, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

I never felt magic crazy as this
I never saw moons knew the meaning of the sea
I never held emotion in the palm of my hand
Or felt sweet breezes in the top of a tree
But now you're here
Bright in my northern sky.

It's been a long time that I'm waiting
Been a long time that I'm blown
been a long time that I've wandered
Through the people I have known
Oh, if you would and you could
Straighten my new mind's eye.

Would you love me for my money
Would you love me for my head
Would you love me through the winter
Would you love me 'til I'm dead
Oh, if you would and you could
Come blow your horn on high.

I never felt magic crazy as this
I never saw moons knew the meaning of the sea
I never held emotion in the palm of my hand
Or felt sweet breezes in the top of a tree
But now you're here
Bright in my northern sky.

-Northern Sky, Nick Drake

And its time to come in from the cold...

2011-02-07T10:20:00.001+08:00

Will you wait for me?, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

When its clear this time youve found the one
You never let him go
Coz you know
and you know
that you know...
And its time to come in from the cold...

-When You Know, Shawn Colvin, OST Serendipity

Bow / Eglantine

2011-02-06T10:50:00.001+08:00

Bow / Eglantine, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

Birdseye view, awake the stars 'cause they're all around you,
Wide eyes will always brighten the blue,
Chase your dreams, and remember me, speak bravery,
'cause after all those wings will take you, up so high,
So bid the forest floor goodbye, as you brace the wind and,
Take to the sky... you take to the sky

-To The Sky, Owl City OST Legend of the Guardians: Owl of Ga'Hoole

Chocolate Cake and Love

2011-02-05T10:48:00.002+08:00

Chocolate Cake and Love, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

Its been the longest winter without you
i didnt know where to turn to...

-Better in time, Leona Lewis

Doesnt Really Matter

2011-02-04T14:16:00.001+08:00

Doesn't really matter what the eye is seeing
Cause I'm in love with the inner being
And it doesn't really matter what they believe
What matters to me is you're in love with me

- Doest Really Matter, Janet Jackson

Fly with me like lovers do...

2011-02-03T02:13:00.000+08:00

"But what do you say to Taking Chances?
What do you say to jumping off the edge...?
never knowing if theres solid ground
or hand to hold
or hell to pay
what do you say..."

-Taking Chances, Celine Dion

Well if thats love...

2011-02-02T14:13:00.003+08:00

"Well if thats love,
it comes at much too higher cost.
Id sooner buy defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye Im defying gravity
I think Ill try defying gravity
and you wont bring me down..."

Kurt & Rachel, Glee

I think ill be brave starting with you

2011-02-01T10:07:00.001+08:00

I think ill be brave starting with you, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

Brave
Tawgs Salter
OST The Vampire Diaries

I think I'll be brave
Starting with you
But I'll fall away if you tell me to
I'd rather be wrong
Then hope that I'm right
'Cause I can't go on with this all inside

I think I'll be brave
And say how I've wanted you

Going around inside my head
Trying to talk me out of it
So lonely...Too lonely
If there's a possibility
You turn and run away with me
I need to...To show you before it fades

I think I'll be brave
Starting with you
But I'll fall away if you tell me to
I'd rather be wrong
Than hope that I'm right
'Cause I can't go on with this all inside

I think I'll be brave
And say how I've wanted you

Over the bridge and down a ways
Far off ahead I see a face
I follow, it's swallows me
Where do i begin
Whenever you say you let me in
I need to...To show you before it fades

I think I'll be brave
Starting with you
But I'll fall away if you tell me to
I'd rather be worng
Than hope that I'm right
'Cause I can't go on with this all inside

I think I'll be brave
And say how I've wanted you

Say how I've wanted you
Say how I've wanted you
And say how I've wanted you

I think I'll be brave

Going around inside my head
Trying to talk me out of it
So lonely...

Cold Lonely Night

2011-01-31T14:15:00.000+08:00

Tuyo Nang Damdamin

2011-01-30T14:14:00.000+08:00

Moving Mountains

2011-01-29T14:12:00.000+08:00

then you look at me

2011-01-28T14:11:00.000+08:00

The Fine Line

2011-01-27T14:10:00.000+08:00

The Dirty Sand and Me

2011-01-26T14:09:00.000+08:00

and yet so far

2011-01-25T14:08:00.000+08:00

Forever Blue (and green)

2011-01-24T14:08:00.000+08:00

So Close

2011-01-23T14:07:00.001+08:00

"were so close to reaching that famous happy ending
almost believing this ones not pretend
lets go on dreaming though we know we are
So close
So close
But still so far..."

-SO Close, John McLacughlin

Glitter In The Air

2011-01-22T14:06:00.001+08:00

"have you ever hated yourself for staring at the phone?
your whole life waiting on a ring to prove youre not alone..."

Glitter in the air, Pink

Machina

2011-01-21T14:06:00.001+08:00

"Live high
Live mighty
Live righteously..."

-Live High, Jason Mraz

If You Want The Sky

2011-01-20T14:01:00.000+08:00

Sail Away

2011-01-19T14:00:00.001+08:00

Not Quite a Home

2011-01-18T13:58:00.002+08:00

"...but a chair is not a house
and a house is not a home
when theres no one there to hold you tight
and no one there you can kiss goodnight..."

-A House is not a Home, Kurt, OST Glee

The Long Last Looks

2011-01-17T13:57:00.002+08:00

"The time has come
for closing books
and long last looks must end
and as i leave
i know that i am leaving my bestfriend...

...If you wanted the moon
I would try to make a start
But i would rather you let me give my heart..."

-To Sir With Love, Lulu

Cotton Walls

2011-01-16T14:02:00.000+08:00

"Remember those walls i built
baby theyre tumbling down..."

-Halo, Beyonce

True Colors

2011-01-15T13:24:00.003+08:00

"If this world makes you crazy

and you've taken all you can bear

You call me up,

Because you know ill be there..."

-True Colors, Tina, OST Glee

One

2011-01-14T19:42:00.001+08:00

You and Me, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

"You and me together to the days and nights
i dont worry coz everythings gonna be alright..."

-No One, Alicia keys

Lucky

2011-01-13T11:43:00.001+08:00

Lucky, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

"Lucky im in love with my bestfriend
luckt to have been where i have been
Lucky to be coming home again..."

White Horse

2011-01-12T11:46:00.001+08:00

White Horse, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

"Cause I'm not your princess,
this ain't a fairytale
I'm gonna find someone someday
who might actually treat me well
This is a big world,
that was a small town
There in my rearview mirror
disappearing now

And its too late for you and your white horse
Now its too late for you and your white horse,
to catch me now"

-White Horse, Taylor Swift

I see different SHADES now

2011-01-11T11:27:00.001+08:00

I see different SHADES now, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

"...i laugh a bit louder without you
and i see different shades now
im almost never afraid now
when i think ill be ok
i am always wrong coz..."

My Hands, Leona Lewis, OST Final Fantasy XIII

Ever After Rings

2011-01-10T11:33:00.001+08:00

Ever After Rings, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

"Shes been dreaming of a true loves kiss
and a Prince shes hoping comes with this
thats what brings ever after rings so happy.
Thats the reason we need lips so much
for lips are the only things that touch
so to spend a life of endless bliss
just find who you love thru True Loves Kiss"

True Loves Kiss, Amy Adams & James Marsden, OST Enchanted

Happy Working Song

2011-01-09T11:34:00.002+08:00

Instruction, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

"Oh how strange a place to be
till Edward comes for me
my heart is sighing
Still as long as i am here
I guess a new experience
can be worth trying
Hey keep drying!

...so friends eventhough youre vermin
were all happy working throng..."

-Happy Working Song, Amy Adams OST Enchanted

Lights

2011-01-08T11:38:00.001+08:00

Lights, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

"...Check this hand coz i am marvelous
Im marvelous
Im marvelous
Im marvelous
So marvelous
Shes got to love nobody..."

- Poker Face, Idina Menzel and Leah Michelle

Fixin' a Broken Heart

2011-01-07T19:50:00.001+08:00

Fixin' a Broken Heart, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

"There was nothing to say the day she left
just filled the suitcase full of regrets
i held the taxi in the rain
lookin for some place to ease the pain.

just like an answered prayer
I turned around and found you there..."

Im Yours

2011-01-06T11:44:00.001+08:00

Im Yours, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

"I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and I laughed"

- Im yours, Jason Mraz

My Heart Was Home Again

2011-01-05T11:35:00.001+08:00

Red Sand, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

"So it goes, history shows,
deserts must expand,
and camels sail like wooden ship,
like women on the strand
Theres sand on 2nd avenue
and the wind blows like a train
Taxis line up like a string of pearls
around the block again..."

...and i remember everything
and every window pane
every word came back to me
the way it used to be.
Then i saw your face across the street
and My Heart Was Home Again..."

-My Heart Was Home Again, Josh Groban

Found You

2011-01-04T11:15:00.001+08:00

Build, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

All things start from scratch.
Everything has its foundation.
Now the length and the strength of the bond depends not only on the things said and done but mostly those which is not said and not seen.

Trust. Respect.

After all its just a once in a lifetime opportunity that we will find ourselves saying "found you" to a stranger who will become an integral part of a building that you cant alone build.

My Blue Shade

2011-01-03T11:21:00.001+08:00

Yellow, Red, Blue, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

"I wish I could sing no regrets and no emotional debts
'Cause as we kiss goodbye the sun sets
So we are history, the shadow covers me
The sky above, a blaze that only lovers see

He walks away, the sun goes down
He takes the day but I'm gone
And in your way my blue shade
My tears dry on their own..."

-Tears Dry on Their Own, Amy Winehouse

5 Years

2011-01-02T11:22:00.001+08:00

5 Years, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

It was indeed five long years. Fruitful? maybe in terms of money, but in other aspects of my life, i doubt. I came here when i was just 23, fresh yes, and now ill go home and im already 28. Maybe more mature, bruised but still smiling, trying to find that elusive happiness that has been missing for a very long time in my life.

Faded, missing, just like the number five on my ruler.

Gone Too Soon

2011-01-01T16:54:00.001+08:00

Gone Too Soon, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

"Like the loss of sunlight on a cloudy afternoon... Gone too soon."

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To the people, things, events that didnt last...

Nag-iisa, Wala ka na

2010-12-10T00:11:00.001+08:00

"ngunit kailangan ko nang masanay at tanggapin na lumisan ka na nang tunay..."

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Forgiveness

2010-12-06T13:13:00.001+08:00

It is easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend.

By : William Blake

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Shade

2010-12-02T13:51:00.001+08:00

"Pasko na naman

ngunit wala ka pa

hanggang kailan kaya

ako'y maghihintay sa yo...?"

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"...hinahanap hanap pag-ibig mo."

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Kahon

2010-11-25T16:11:00.003+08:00

More than a month ago nagpadala ako ng balikbayan box sa pamilya ko sa probinsya and two days ago dumating na yung boxes. Very happy ang buong pamilya especially me. Ive always wanted the best for them kasi.

Indeed, inay and tatay raised good sons. At kung anuman yung mga narating ko ngayon; kung anong klase ng Tao ako ngayon ay mostly dahil sa kanila... I really thank God for giving me Inay and Tatay. if ever magkaanak din ako, mamahalin ko din siya katulad ng pagmamahal ng magulang ko sakin

Naalala ko tuloy nung unang bakasyon ko sa pinas way back 2007, my inay and i did shopping together, more like mall hopping. We watched One more chance sa sinehan and ive learned its been 20 years daw yung last nood nya sa sinehan. We watched Aiai's concert din sa araneta. Pero she liked the best yung stop over nmin sa Pink Sisters sa tagaytay. Kulang pa yun sa lhat ng naiambag nya sakin.
Tapos nung nkauwi na kami sa probinsya, yung hipag ni inay talked to me nung binigay ko pasalubong from manila. Naiinggit daw sya sa inay ko kasi dahil sa aming magkkapatid. She said na yung mga anak nya never gave her any gift o hindi man lang sya maipsyal sa syudad katulad ng ginagawa ko sa inay. I felt sad for her. Sinabi ko yun sa inay and tatay and theyve told me her sons grew up that way kasi puro sigawan at murahan araw araw sa kanila in opposition sa paraan kung paano kami lumaki. Yung pamilya nmn namin ay hindi perpekto, ilang beses nga kmi napalo ng tatay namin nung bata kami pero never kami minura, ininsulto, o pinagsisigawan nila. At never nila kami fi-norce na gawin ang mga bagay na ayaw namin, siguro yun lng ang shortcoming nila, too much lenient sila. Pero oks din yun, binigyan nila kami ng choice pumili ng landas namin na tatahakin, advice lang yung maibigay nila kami ang tatapak sa hagdanan ng buhay, sila asa likod lang lagi to support

Anyhow im just so happy kc sobrang happy nila. Whatever man mangyari sakin after ng stint ko dito abroad at least nakaranas sila ng konting kaginhawaan sa buhay. And kung suswertehin at pahihintulutan ni Lord ill continue to make them happy hanggang sa huling hininga ko.

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Hero

2010-11-22T18:34:00.004+08:00

Pinapanood ko ang Heroes Season 3 marathon, thus napuyat ako kagabi. At pagnapupuyat ako ibig sabihin nag eenjoy ako sa ginagawa ko. Anyhow Yung Season three ng heroes ay tungkol sa Villains at kasama sa story arc nito ay yung formula na pag inenject sa normal na taong walang special ability ay magkakaability na sya. Katulad rin ng tema sa twilight series na pag naconvert ang isang tao na maging bampira yung pinakamalakas nyang personality o yung subconsious na power ay magmamanifest.

Weh bakit ko ba pinag aaksayahang isulat ito? Kasi napaisip lang ako what if inject-an ako sa Heroes o kaya maging bampira sa Twilight ano kayang speacial abilities meron ako?

hanggang kanina isip ako kung ano.

Nung bata pa ako like ko na si Storm talaga sa Xmen kaso i doubt na maging ganun powers ko. so hindi yun, though mabilis magpaiba iba ang mood ko parang panahon.

Nung binata ako like ko maging invisible para makapanilip ako, wahaha. pero i doubt. nakamove on na ako sa phase na iyon.

Hindi ko like magka super strength kasi ayaw ko makipagaway.

makalipad? Nope. nakikita ko lagi ang sarili ko falling na walang sumasalo, thus hindi ko like lumipad kasi the higher ng paglipad the louder the noise pag bagsak.

Cellular regeneration? nope i dont wanna live forever tapos makikita mo lahat ng mahal mo sa buhay are dying at ikaw maiiwan. naalala ko tuloy si Io sa pelikulang Clash of the Titans

Precognition? napakascary at in turn napakapowerful ng power na ito... to see what lies ahead is a great burden.

hmmm so ano nga bang power ko pag nagkataon? funny. nung tinatype ko ang post na ito it dawned to me kung ano ba pwedeng maging powers ko.

eto:

pag umiiyak ako, nagiging dyamante and luha ko. oha. bongga. theres a deeper explanation kung bakit ito magiging powers ko. and only few people know and understand why.

=)

Balbonic

2010-11-14T21:27:00.001+08:00

HULI KA BALBON

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Mic Test

2010-11-14T11:24:00.001+08:00

Archie Lionheart

12.11.10

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Ihip ng Hangin

2010-11-07T18:41:00.001+08:00

one of my favorite songs. pagnaririnig ko itong kantang ito, i picture my self, nasa tabi ng dagat, palakad lakad, habang papalubog ang araw. may hinihintay, nakikinig sa sinasabi ng ihip ng hangin...

The Field of Umber

2010-11-03T17:34:00.001+08:00

THE FIELD OF UMBER
Prince_Cloud 13.08.09

Bloodtrails behind,
That proves the missing heart is gone
To where it must not be
With the monster, eager not to plea

Can the bridge pull you across?
Or else face death, the way back is lost
Killer as you might be, Hate will reign in glee
At least you are free

Or is freedom all you need,
Can Happiness redeem the mammoth’s regime?
Vindicate the wounded self, From the
Boastful ego that consumed the spread eagled prey

Yes, beyond is a lonely glory
But true angels in disguise might be
Celebrating the loneliness you have attained
Finally slaying and burning the monstrosity within

Cloud and Shade, we may never know
Smoke and Rain combined, might never do
All of them you cannot hold on to
Unless you became one, ethereal will do

Look into the Darkness, behind it lurks
Might be afraid of the bloody coup
Fatal, the way back to monstrosity
Tears and bloody roses, let them be

But can elements hinder forever and ever, or
Can death overcome serenity and eternity ?
When two holy objects unite, a door opens
Greater than this weak bridge, might never happen

Its Mightier than the purging Rain
That the angry Cloud, his strength in vain
More beautiful than the Smoke as it dances to the heavens
Giving a wonderful Shade to a stressed and worn out giant...

Beyond this weak bridge is the field of umber.
Where Cloud protects from the shining Rays
And Shade can overcome the powerful pain
Forget holding on, run away from the imminent disaster.

Like / Love

2010-10-31T13:28:00.002+08:00

Inspired, yes

In love, not yet

Wants to be In love, hell yeah. =)

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I like it when the wind flips my hair up and down. But i Love it when you pave my hair away from my face... To see how bright my eyes can glow when youre around

I like it when my brain tells that im going home at the end of this monsoon, but i love how my heart hums that im gonna see you soon...

I like the idea of "Love at First Sight", but i love the truth that "I knew i loved you before i met you."

I like the way you punch me when i do something childish. But i love how you cure my swollen muscles through your kisses...

I like watching movies with you, but i love watching you watching me...

I like every hour, minute, second i spend with you, but i love how TIME stops when you kiss my lips, event- that the world cant miss.

i like the light, it makes me see things clearly. but ilove darkness. it makes me appreciate more the light that is you

i like your 'good nights' but i love waking up to another Better morning with you...

I like the realization that you love somebody else; but i love the fact that i can wait until that love fades and ours bloom
i like hearing my name in a song; but i love it whenever youre the one singing it.

i like you for not liking me, but i love you, not because you dont love me, its because I do.

I like to be your servant & do everything you ask; but what i love the most is that youll be my one and only King.

Likes Love ko 'to; Loves 'Love Kita'.

I like how the stars twinkle on a dark summer night but i love how they shimmer in your eyes

I like ur tweets, coz through them i get to know ur fleeting toughts; i love ur DMs those few words thats only for my eyes to see.

Likes a wild rollercoaster ride; loves to ride life's laughters and cries as long as you are here by my side.

likes my once upon a time until it ended; loves a second once upon a time, oh when will it come?

Taking Chances

2010-10-05T05:40:00.001+08:00

Taking Chances, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

I was talking to a friend this morning about the person I admire. As much as I wanted to explain the questions attached to the situation I only came up with one answer: he is a combination of two people I loved but altogether a league of his own. Funny isn’t it how feelings mysteriously sprout in an unexpected way, but as much as I wanted to believe that this might lead to love, I do know from experience that love fades when not nurtured, just like how love fades in a morning coffee as it turns cold. But love blooms too when you are needed, like water to flower or music to ears. To every form of love, there is always a beginning, a beginning I will call “taking chances”.

I do believe that love defines us, from the moment of ‘taking chances’ to the very moment of “I do’s” or the heartbreaking “I don’ts”. It’s through this we learn that not all choices are made in heaven, though true love is. We learn that every chance we take is a way to gain that piece of heaven that one day we might own for a meantime, realizing that sometimes it’s just borrowed and cannot be truly ours. But what matters is that we have experienced that piece, and that’s all but enough to take another chance and hope that someday another gift may come our way, this time it’ll stay for good. We just have to accept that every chance we take will take us to either: falling into rubble of stones or end up in the arms of somebody, saving us from that painful fall. So I guess we just have to enjoy the jump from the cliff and be ready of the outcome, not regretting that we took the chance to jump. But I daresay the timing of the jump is of the essence.

But then again, in the business of our mornings, there are chances that come our way that we didn’t even notice exists, chances, just for us. For us it’s just a fleeting love song but if we just take a closer look, admit to ourselves that we need to listen more intently, that love song is made not for everyone to hear but only made especially for us. Those magical chances I believe exist only rarely, they come not packaged by fate but lived thru the power of a man’s choice to love.

True, there’s always an end to every beginning and there’s always a new hello to every ending. That one hello that will stay and will linger forever, withstanding the test of eternity. That hello, a new choice, another chance to prove love exists.

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“What do you say to ‘taking chances’
What do you say to ‘jumping off the edge’…?”

Image Of You

2010-10-04T05:43:00.003+08:00

This is a song inspired by a poem of the same name by Mr. ASH677 to Mrs. ASH. Upon reading Ash677's poem around June last year, i felt this jolt of inspiration, and I rearranged his Poem to fit in this song, of course with his permission. Ive realised i havent posted this nice song here, and i do hope you enjoy it as much as i enjoyed making it, i tried my best to make it good, and for me to sound good, frustrated singer blah blahs. hehe. Its already a year old song, and it still makes me smile whenever i hear this.

IMAGE OF YOU
11.06.09
Music and Lyrics by ASH677 and Cloud Airheart

I opened my eyes this morning
And there you were still sleeping
One hand outstretched to mine
The other cuddling our pillow

I took your hand, led it to my face
A warm tender comfort, ill surely miss
Nights from now on, youll just be a silhouette
Its just me and an image of you

Chorus:
And to wake up empty handed
No morning kiss to cherish
No tight hug that surely melts
My heart and soul
Its just me and the old radio
And your static voice on the phone
And an image of you
In my heart and soul

Before my eyes closed last night
You told me not to worry
Caressed my face, with a butterfly kiss
Wiping my tears, saving my eternity

Walking alone, driving alone
Coming back home will be much harder
To see an empty chair, empty home
Its just me and an image of you

Chorus:
And to wake up empty handed
No morning kiss to cherish
No tight hug that surely melts
My heart and soul
Its just me and the old radio
And your static voice on the phone
And an image of you
In my heart and soul

Introducing Me

2010-09-26T12:29:00.002+08:00

I instantly fell in love with this song and the Movie too (Camp Rock 2)! I watched it last week and Joe Jonas, (of course gorgeous as usual) and Demi lovato (so pretty) made me feel in love again, plus Nick Jonas and his love interest.

I like this kind of movie. Mga pang teenager. haha. Maybe, just maybe i havent experienced such kaya naeexcite ang senses ko when i watch movie themes like this and oh, the love at first sight and falling in love themes, oh boy you have no idea how much i wanted to experience it. the true one of course.

'My Favorite Song', 'Wouldnt Change A Thing' and 'This is Our Song' are Love! =)

For YOU Im Gonna Sit and Patiently Wait...

2010-09-08T21:51:00.001+08:00

For you...

[Epilogue] The September Song

2010-09-01T14:53:00.000+08:00

(Repost, included the song)

[Prologue] THE FRIENDSHIP CODE
[i] ANOTHER SKIPPED MEAL
[ii] DANIEL’s LICENCE
[iii] First Come, First Served
[iv] FAST FOOD CHAIN
[v] THE BIGGEST PROBLEM IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD
[vi] COLD COFFEE (k)NIGHT
[vii] COLD COFFEE (k)NIGHT - Epilogue
[viii] BLUE RIVER: Entre'Acte
[ix] BLUE RIVER: A Sad Hue of Blue
[x] NO GOODBYE's

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[Epilogue] The September Song

Nature knows how to love

like lovers in a dance
Lifes a party, never stops

and wait for those who are sad

It was my first serene night after what has happened in the old pages of this life’s history. At last I have learned to let go, I really don’t know what has happened or what I have gained but at least im not troubled anymore. There comes a time that I encounter his name and I feel a little jolt in some bloody muscle inside, but It’s a strange sound now, not musically relevant nor an orchestral symbolism of something grand. The world indeed cant stop for someone who is sad and broken, it would continue to revolve around its axis never minding people who definitely will be left behind.

I woke up remembering the previous night, the night I burned the letters, deleted the messages, threw memento’s and cut all the strings attaching me with someone.

Grains of feeling scattered

all over the haunted bridge
Street filled with fools,
like distant thunders

Striking our hearts at glance

It wasn’t easy, picking up the feelings scattered in the floor. Its like picking a million tears, not wanting to be part of you again and you just ended up, mopping the floor dry, not wanting to slip down and hurt your ass. But you'd wish it would happen. I used to wish it would have been that easy. Its easier to be beaten up, every inch of the human flesh than to be in pain in that particular small part of the body.

I woke up a different person now. Shaved, clean, unbiased. Bruised, jaded, burned out no more. Looking at the mirror, I still have my self and that’s all that might matter in this life. Im my own hero after all. All the others left are strangers ready to strike a pose in someones life.

The August night melts

like the stars are clouded by mist
You seem so close like September’s grin

then cry all over again

Time flies so fast. It seems eternity that we parted from each other. You never said goodbye- when I said ill see you soon. You never said you cared – when I said I need you. You said nothings gonna be the same again – when I finally blurted out how much I have been through because of you. Those were your weapons that broke my fortress. I never really wanted anything that can harm someone nor making my stronghold strong. I really never really cared about myself. It seems im at the moment they call 'my Another Now'. A Now without you, A Now that only has me in it. The August is so far away, you were my September, and its ends tomorrow morning with a grin. You used to be the road that leads me home, now that road is blocked. I ve learned an alternate route, an alleyway without you.

Then I held your hand

upon my empty hearted chest
I saw you as the smoke ascends

need to forgive, ill never regret

On my way to our meeting place, by choice I passed by your apartment. I did what I could to reach out to you previously, I know you know that I never abandoned you. But you never budged…

And then there you were, at last i saw your smiles. Andrew welcomed you back in his life. May be that was one of the reasons… Maybe you really don’t need someone like me anymore. I was like what you call people who's just pestering you around, an IPIS of sorts. you've fought a tough battle and I was glad you were smiling, im not sure if youre victorious, you never gave me the chance to know the real story.

I forgive you, maybe in time ill learn how to forget too.

For the last time, below the shade of the clouded sun I whispered my goodbye.

The plane awaits for me to board,

counted reasons- one to nine
To leave this place,
beneath the sand lies gold,

can you be mine?

Ive flown my way towards the meeting place. I know now. Ive learned now.

I know now that life maybe unfair but its still beautiful and to finally realize its beauty is one of the reason we continue to live.

Ive learned now the reason why people kept on loving even though it almost always end up breaking our hearts. Because not loving at all is killing our opportunity to enjoy the reason and purpose that God has given us. We were created because of love, and thus we should live by it, full of love. Not loving is like not living this life at all.

Ride the clouds, over uneven hills

like a baby on a coaster ride
Just whisper, the echo and the wind

will deliver the unsung surprise

I started to smile. I was riding the clouds once again. No strings attached anymore. Free though unloved by someone but full of it nonetheless. I understand now, wherever my feet will take me, ill never be alone. I know someones waiting for me to come back.

I arrived at the meeting place. The place my mom told me about last night. She told me that Someone wanted to meet me here. I was surprised that someone turned out to be someheavenly troupe. I wasn’t alone after all. Though ive lost someone I hold dear, I still have more important angels that will never leave me. mom was there all smiles, Daniel and Karen, dearest to my heart were there. Brian and Brix-full of love, was shouting my name. Jake and Janus, was waving their hands in glee. JR, my crush was there too, showing off his sparkly teeth.

“Hello!” my heart whisphered.

And so a tale of love and loss ends, to start a new life worth living and worth reminiscing.

I am like your dying month of August
And you are my September Song
Unspoken words, like wet candles, wont burn again
Cant be reborn like the October monsoon...

[the end]

The Promise (Serah's Theme)

2010-08-31T12:44:00.003+08:00

Make my wish come true
Let darkness fade to light
Show me there's still hope,
Show me it's not over
Battles we can win,
Our struggle lies within
Will we live to greet the dawn
Love will not leave you
Hate will not heal you
Promise me one day that peace shall reign

Paradusdos

2010-08-19T18:34:00.001+08:00

Paradusdos, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

Isa sa pinagkakaabalahan ko tuwing weekends o day off ay ang magluto. Hindi naman ako kagalingang magluto, pero marunong din naman kahit papaano. Simulat sapul kasi mula nung college pa, dahil sa sobrang hectic ng pag-aaral o sa trabaho, umaasa na lang ako sa de-lata o pancit canton o yung mga madaling lutin gaya ng paprito prito ng mga isda o itlog o hotdog. Nung una kong trabaho sa Antipolo doon talaga ako natuto na magluto talaga. pero simple lang naman ang niluluto ko dati. natutunan ko sa kapatid kong si Piolo na kasama ko sa partment sa Antipolo ang mag gisa, magpakbet. Bonus nga lang yung inuuwian niya ako ng Chow king meal (kasi sa Chowking sya nagwowork). Dahil likas naman talaga ang katamaran ko sa kusina at minsan sa paglilinis, umaasa na lang ako sa kanya lagi kung ano ang kakainin namin, hehe.

Tapos napalipat nga ako dito sa Saudi. ganun pa din sa unang 2 taon ko, umaasa lang naman din ako kay Pareng Totoy Bibo. Nagbibigay lang ako ng budget weekly tapos sya na ang bahala sa aking pang araw araw na pagkain. Tinutulungan ko naman siya magluto, sa kanya ako halos natuto ng mga matitinding ulam. Pininyahang manok, kaldereta, spaghetti, kare-kare atbp. Sus, anlaki ng utang na loob ko sa kanya. Makalipas ang ilan pang taon at nag sarili na rin ako, at doon nga nagpatuloy ang pakikipag kaibigan ko sa mga fast foods at mga pagkaing matataas ang MSG at preservatives. Susme naman, antindi naman kasi ng trabaho ko dati 7am to 7pm na from staurday to friday. kung mag pahinga man isa hanggang 2 beses lang sa isang buwan, so no choice talaga na umaasa ako sa mga de-lata at paprito prito galore.

Dahil na rin sa request ko na ibahin ang schedule ko, ayun nagkaroon ako ng libreng oras at one day rest day. Ayun ginugugol ko ang libreng oras sa paghihilata, paglalaro ng PS3 at pag weekend nagluluto ako ng isang putahe na, ipapakain at ipapataste test ko sa mga magagaling magluto. hehe. Maituturing ko specialty ko yung pininyahang manok kasi iyon ang malimit kong lutin na dati pa. lately nasarapan sila sa Sinigang na bangus, Kalderetang baka, Adobong manok. Yung Spaghetti hindi ko pa perpek eh. hehe.

Anyhow sunod kong titirahin ang Kare-kare, Sopas, Beefsteak at kung ano pang maisuggest nila Pareng Ram at ni Pareng Bhong. Ayun nga lang ambilis ko makalimot sa mga ingredients, ahahaha. Pero nag ienjoy ako magluto lalo na pag nagugustuhan nila luto ko.

Yun nga palang picture sa taas ay ang niluluto ng inay ko na Paradusdos nung una kong vacation. miss ko na ang mga Inay sobra.

=)

Payong

2010-08-16T20:53:00.004+08:00

Transparent umbrella, originally uploaded by HELLER_Photography.

Mataas ang sikat ng araw, ngunit ang init na dulot nitoy nakakapagpalubag loob sa aking pusong nanlalamig. Sa panahon ng tag-araw dumating ka sa aking buhay, una pa lamang kitang nakita kakaibang init na kagad ang naramdaman ko, mas matindi pa ang dulot nito kaysa sa ligayang dulot ng haring araw, mas maningning pa ang kinang ng iyong presensya kaysa sa pilak sa gitna ng arawan. Saya ang dulot ng tag-araw, hindi kinakailangang magbilad sa sikat ng araw, maraming puno ang magkakanlong sa atin, habang ngiti at tawa mo ang aking laging pinagmamasdan. Sa tag-araw natin nakita ang ligaya ng buhay, at noon ko napagtanto na ikaw na nga ang nais kong kasukob sa papalapit na unos.

Dumating ang tag ulan, magkasama pa rin tayo. Pilit ko mang iwaksi ang damdamin ko sa iyo, mukhang tuluyan na akong nahulog sa iyo, hindi ito mapipigilan tulad ng ulan sa kanyang pagpatak sa uhaw na lupa. Pilit ko mang pigilin ito, ngunit ang tangi ko lang magagawa ay pagmasdan ang mala-likidong diamante na pumapatak… isa, dalawa, hanggang laksa laksang tumulo, para bang lumuluha ang langit. Lumalakas ang buhos ng ulan, nakatago na rin ang haring araw. Pinangako ko sa iyo na palagi kitang dadamayan sa lahat, iyon ang pangakong aking tutuparin. Nababasa ka na ng ulan. Nilapitan kita at pinasukob sa aking payong, ngumiti ka…

"Tuwing umuulan ay naalala tayong dalawa
Kay sarap isipin na may kasama sa buhay
Kapag bumaha...
Sukob na, halika ka na
sabay tayo sa payong ko
Hawak ka, kapit pa
Sa payong ko, magkasama tayo"

Kasukob kita sa aking payong, nililingon kita sa bawat saglit upang matiyak na hindi ka nababasa ng ulan. Sa liit ng payong ko, natutuwa ako at nagpupumilit tayong manatiling tuyo sa gitna ng bugso ng panahon… Ngunit mukhang lumalakas ang hangin pinilit kong igawi sa iyong bahagi ang kabuuan ng payong, di baleng nababasa ako ng ulan bastat nakikita kitang tuyo at ligtas, maligaya at umiibig. malamig na pakiramdam ang dulot ng malungkot na ulan... Tila may hinahanap ka sa malayong dako, hindi mo nakikitang nababasa na ako, pero wala yun sa akin, hindi mo man ako nililingon, masaya ako at kahit ilang saglit ay nakasama kita. Sa anino ng iyong mga mata, napagtanto kong siya pa rin pala talaga ang mahal mo.

Dumating na ang hinihintay mo, at nasa kabilang kalye sya, hinihintay ka… Sinabi ko sa iyong OK lang… Tinawid mo ang kalsada at dala dala ang payong ko, sa iyo naman talaga yan eh, simula pa lang, sa iyo ko na inialay ang napakahalagang bagay na iyan. Basa na ako sa ulan, nilingon mo ako at nakitang nakatingala, nginitian kita at sinabing “mag-ingat kayong dalawa, huwag kang mag-alala sa akin”, kasunod ang isang ngiti… Nakita mo kaya na sa kabila ng ngiting iyon, tumutulo ang luha ko sa gitna ng ulang pumapatak sa aking mukha?

PREFIX

2010-08-09T12:36:00.001+08:00

Burned Forever, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

By Cloud Air Heart
09.08.10

Burned forever
The cold strings of laughter
Let the fresh teardrops
Rot on the ground.
Your lies’ survival
Led to a heartbeat’s death
What the fuck is friendship
If were mutilated.

Used my life
They’re yours somehow
The way you own the clouds
Dried that bloody round

Forever was the word
That was lost in the dark
The ending was written
Before these lines arrived
And I was the man
That’s worth leaving behind
Not wanting this waiting shed
To be your resting ground

A mangled spirit
In search for pleasure
A predator on his knees
Enamored prey awaits his demise
A helpless angel
On a lonely plight
But beneath his halo
Lies a wicked heart.

Ill drift away
Exhale me now
Fly my heart up in the air
On his way to the clouds

Salvage the memories
Of the lonely teardrop?
To moisten the wound
Or to bring us our doom?
Save the laughter
From burning forever?
To bring back the frozen emotion
Or to burn us till our expiration?

Forever was just a stupid word
Its just me and the ghost of your lies
The way you died without goodbye
The way I bled the pain inside
While your name spells my sadness
Mine explains the reason why
And His is the only prefix from heaven
That changes the meaning of my life

His is the letters from up high
That makes this waiting worthwhile.

LIHAM NG PAG-IBIG

2010-08-07T13:29:00.003+08:00

Una pa lamang kitang nakita, nabighani na ako sa iyong kakisigan. MAHAL na kita sa una nating pagkikita. Kahit na may kaitiman ka, napakaganda pa ring pagmasdan ang balat mong napakakinis. Napakaganda ng iyong mukha. Akala ko pa nga ay napakahirap mong abutin, pero sinabi ko sa sarili ko na gagawin ko ang lahat mapasaakin ka lamang. Ginugol ko ang aking mga oras sa kakaisip ng mga paraan na maglalapit sa ating dalawa. Minsan ginagawa kong araw ang gabi upang mapatunayan sa iyo ang aking pagmamahal, nagtrabaho akong mabuti upang makaipon, para rin sa iyo. At nuon ngang ika-4 ng Agosto 2010, ipinaubaya mo ang iyong sarili sa akin.

Minahal kita ng lubusan. Lagi kitang pinakikinggan. Hindi tayo mapaghiwalay. Kahit sa pagtulog lagi tayong magkatabi at magkaulayaw, pasensya na kung minsan ikaw ay aking natutulugan. Ang mga barkada ko nga ay naiinis na sa akin dahil ikaw lang daw ang aking pinakikinggan. Ikaw ang laging kasama mula bukangliwayway hanggang takipsilim.

Dahil sa aking pagmamahal sa iyo, ako ang nagaaruga sa iyo na iyo namang ikinatutuwa. At ikaw naman, laging dala dala ang ating mga larawan upang ipaalala ang ating pinagsamahan. Kung nababagot naman ako ay nagyayaya kang manood ng sine. Higit sa lahat minahal kita, kahit na minsan ay pinaglalaruan kita, naiintindihan mo naman ang dahilan kung bakit ganun ako sa iyo. Alam ko minsan nasasaktan ka na sa mga papindot pindot ko sa iyo, pagkurot kurot ko sa iyo. Dahil dooy hindi mo maiwasang maubusan ng lakas na animoy tuluyan mo na akong iiwan. Ngunit matapos ang ilang oras ay bumabalik ka rin kagad sa aking mga PALAD.

Ang mga musikang hatid mo ang siyang nagpapawi ng aking lumbay at lungkot kaya naman tatagal ang ating pagsasama. Alam kong marami pa tayong pagdadaanan, lalo pa’t nalalapit na ang ating pag-uwi sa Pilipinas. Baka pagnakita ka ng aking mga kapatid ay hingin ka sa akin. Hindi ka naman siguro magagalit kung ipapahiram kita diba? Sasabihan ko naman sa kanila na ingatan ka dahil NAPAKAMAHAL mo. Basta ipinapangako kong hindi ka masisira dahil malaking kawalan ka sa akin. Kahit medyo marami ka nang gasgas the best ka parin para sa akin. Nandito lagi ako para sa iyo aking PSP (PLAYSTATION PORTABLE).

Nagmamahal,

ULAP

PS. Ireregalo nga pala kita sa aking inaanak