Friday, December 10, 2010

Nag-iisa, Wala ka na

"ngunit kailangan ko nang masanay at tanggapin na lumisan ka na nang tunay..."
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Monday, December 6, 2010

Forgiveness

It is easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend.

By : William Blake
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Thursday, December 2, 2010

Shade

"Pasko na naman

ngunit wala ka pa

hanggang kailan kaya

ako'y maghihintay sa yo...?"

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"...hinahanap hanap pag-ibig mo."
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Thursday, November 25, 2010

Kahon

More than a month ago nagpadala ako ng balikbayan box sa pamilya ko sa probinsya and two days ago dumating na yung boxes. Very happy ang buong pamilya especially me. Ive always wanted the best for them kasi.

Indeed, inay and tatay raised good sons. At kung anuman yung mga narating ko ngayon; kung anong klase ng Tao ako ngayon ay mostly dahil sa kanila... I really thank God for giving me Inay and Tatay. if ever magkaanak din ako, mamahalin ko din siya katulad ng pagmamahal ng magulang ko sakin

Naalala ko tuloy nung unang bakasyon ko sa pinas way back 2007, my inay and i did shopping together, more like mall hopping. We watched One more chance sa sinehan and ive learned its been 20 years daw yung last nood nya sa sinehan. We watched Aiai's concert din sa araneta. Pero she liked the best yung stop over nmin sa Pink Sisters sa tagaytay. Kulang pa yun sa lhat ng naiambag nya sakin.
Tapos nung nkauwi na kami sa probinsya, yung hipag ni inay talked to me nung binigay ko pasalubong from manila. Naiinggit daw sya sa inay ko kasi dahil sa aming magkkapatid. She said na yung mga anak nya never gave her any gift o hindi man lang sya maipsyal sa syudad katulad ng ginagawa ko sa inay. I felt sad for her. Sinabi ko yun sa inay and tatay and theyve told me her sons grew up that way kasi puro sigawan at murahan araw araw sa kanila in opposition sa paraan kung paano kami lumaki. Yung pamilya nmn namin ay hindi perpekto, ilang beses nga kmi napalo ng tatay namin nung bata kami pero never kami minura, ininsulto, o pinagsisigawan nila. At never nila kami fi-norce na gawin ang mga bagay na ayaw namin, siguro yun lng ang shortcoming nila, too much lenient sila. Pero oks din yun, binigyan nila kami ng choice pumili ng landas namin na tatahakin, advice lang yung maibigay nila kami ang tatapak sa hagdanan ng buhay, sila asa likod lang lagi to support

Anyhow im just so happy kc sobrang happy nila. Whatever man mangyari sakin after ng stint ko dito abroad at least nakaranas sila ng konting kaginhawaan sa buhay. And kung suswertehin at pahihintulutan ni Lord ill continue to make them happy hanggang sa huling hininga ko.
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Monday, November 22, 2010

Hero

Pinapanood ko ang Heroes Season 3 marathon, thus napuyat ako kagabi. At pagnapupuyat ako ibig sabihin nag eenjoy ako sa ginagawa ko. Anyhow Yung Season three ng heroes ay tungkol sa Villains at kasama sa story arc nito ay yung formula na pag inenject sa normal na taong walang special ability ay magkakaability na sya. Katulad rin ng tema sa twilight series na pag naconvert ang isang tao na maging bampira yung pinakamalakas nyang personality o yung subconsious na power ay magmamanifest.

Weh bakit ko ba pinag aaksayahang isulat ito? Kasi napaisip lang ako what if inject-an ako sa Heroes o kaya maging bampira sa Twilight ano kayang speacial abilities meron ako?

hanggang kanina isip ako kung ano.

Nung bata pa ako like ko na si Storm talaga sa Xmen kaso i doubt na maging ganun powers ko. so hindi yun, though mabilis magpaiba iba ang mood ko parang panahon.

Nung binata ako like ko maging invisible para makapanilip ako, wahaha. pero i doubt. nakamove on na ako sa phase na iyon.

Hindi ko like magka super strength kasi ayaw ko makipagaway.

makalipad? Nope. nakikita ko lagi ang sarili ko falling na walang sumasalo, thus hindi ko like lumipad kasi the higher ng paglipad the louder the noise pag bagsak.

Cellular regeneration? nope i dont wanna live forever tapos makikita mo lahat ng mahal mo sa buhay are dying at ikaw maiiwan. naalala ko tuloy si Io sa pelikulang Clash of the Titans

Precognition? napakascary at in turn napakapowerful ng power na ito... to see what lies ahead is a great burden.

hmmm so ano nga bang power ko pag nagkataon? funny. nung tinatype ko ang post na ito it dawned to me kung ano ba pwedeng maging powers ko.

eto:

pag umiiyak ako, nagiging dyamante and luha ko. oha. bongga. theres a deeper explanation kung bakit ito magiging powers ko. and only few people know and understand why.

=)

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Ihip ng Hangin



one of my favorite songs. pagnaririnig ko itong kantang ito, i picture my self, nasa tabi ng dagat, palakad lakad, habang papalubog ang araw. may hinihintay, nakikinig sa sinasabi ng ihip ng hangin...

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

The Field of Umber

THE FIELD OF UMBER
Prince_Cloud 13.08.09

Bloodtrails behind,
That proves the missing heart is gone
To where it must not be
With the monster, eager not to plea

Can the bridge pull you across?
Or else face death, the way back is lost
Killer as you might be, Hate will reign in glee
At least you are free

Or is freedom all you need,
Can Happiness redeem the mammoth’s regime?
Vindicate the wounded self, From the
Boastful ego that consumed the spread eagled prey

Yes, beyond is a lonely glory
But true angels in disguise might be
Celebrating the loneliness you have attained
Finally slaying and burning the monstrosity within

Cloud and Shade, we may never know
Smoke and Rain combined, might never do
All of them you cannot hold on to
Unless you became one, ethereal will do

Look into the Darkness, behind it lurks
Might be afraid of the bloody coup
Fatal, the way back to monstrosity
Tears and bloody roses, let them be

But can elements hinder forever and ever, or
Can death overcome serenity and eternity ?
When two holy objects unite, a door opens
Greater than this weak bridge, might never happen

Its Mightier than the purging Rain
That the angry Cloud, his strength in vain
More beautiful than the Smoke as it dances to the heavens
Giving a wonderful Shade to a stressed and worn out giant...

Beyond this weak bridge is the field of umber.
Where Cloud protects from the shining Rays
And Shade can overcome the powerful pain
Forget holding on, run away from the imminent disaster.

Sunday, October 31, 2010

Like / Love

Inspired, yes

In love, not yet

Wants to be In love, hell yeah. =)


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I like it when the wind flips my hair up and down. But i Love it when you pave my hair away from my face... To see how bright my eyes can glow when youre around

I like it when my brain tells that im going home at the end of this monsoon, but i love how my heart hums that im gonna see you soon...

I like the idea of "Love at First Sight", but i love the truth that "I knew i loved you before i met you."

I like the way you punch me when i do something childish. But i love how you cure my swollen muscles through your kisses...

I like watching movies with you, but i love watching you watching me...

I like every hour, minute, second i spend with you, but i love how TIME stops when you kiss my lips, event- that the world cant miss.

i like the light, it makes me see things clearly. but ilove darkness. it makes me appreciate more the light that is you

i like your 'good nights' but i love waking up to another Better morning with you...

I like the realization that you love somebody else; but i love the fact that i can wait until that love fades and ours bloom
i like hearing my name in a song; but i love it whenever youre the one singing it.

i like you for not liking me, but i love you, not because you dont love me, its because I do.

I like to be your servant & do everything you ask; but what i love the most is that youll be my one and only King.

Likes Love ko 'to; Loves 'Love Kita'.

I like how the stars twinkle on a dark summer night but i love how they shimmer in your eyes

I like ur tweets, coz through them i get to know ur fleeting toughts; i love ur DMs those few words thats only for my eyes to see.

Likes a wild rollercoaster ride; loves to ride life's laughters and cries as long as you are here by my side.

likes my once upon a time until it ended; loves a second once upon a time, oh when will it come?

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Taking Chances


Taking Chances, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

I was talking to a friend this morning about the person I admire. As much as I wanted to explain the questions attached to the situation I only came up with one answer: he is a combination of two people I loved but altogether a league of his own. Funny isn’t it how feelings mysteriously sprout in an unexpected way, but as much as I wanted to believe that this might lead to love, I do know from experience that love fades when not nurtured, just like how love fades in a morning coffee as it turns cold. But love blooms too when you are needed, like water to flower or music to ears. To every form of love, there is always a beginning, a beginning I will call “taking chances”.

I do believe that love defines us, from the moment of ‘taking chances’ to the very moment of “I do’s” or the heartbreaking “I don’ts”. It’s through this we learn that not all choices are made in heaven, though true love is. We learn that every chance we take is a way to gain that piece of heaven that one day we might own for a meantime, realizing that sometimes it’s just borrowed and cannot be truly ours. But what matters is that we have experienced that piece, and that’s all but enough to take another chance and hope that someday another gift may come our way, this time it’ll stay for good. We just have to accept that every chance we take will take us to either: falling into rubble of stones or end up in the arms of somebody, saving us from that painful fall. So I guess we just have to enjoy the jump from the cliff and be ready of the outcome, not regretting that we took the chance to jump. But I daresay the timing of the jump is of the essence.

But then again, in the business of our mornings, there are chances that come our way that we didn’t even notice exists, chances, just for us. For us it’s just a fleeting love song but if we just take a closer look, admit to ourselves that we need to listen more intently, that love song is made not for everyone to hear but only made especially for us. Those magical chances I believe exist only rarely, they come not packaged by fate but lived thru the power of a man’s choice to love.

True, there’s always an end to every beginning and there’s always a new hello to every ending. That one hello that will stay and will linger forever, withstanding the test of eternity. That hello, a new choice, another chance to prove love exists.

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“What do you say to ‘taking chances’
What do you say to ‘jumping off the edge’…?”

Monday, October 4, 2010

Image Of You

This is a song inspired by a poem of the same name by Mr. ASH677 to Mrs. ASH. Upon reading Ash677's poem around June last year, i felt this jolt of inspiration, and I rearranged his Poem to fit in this song, of course with his permission. Ive realised i havent posted this nice song here, and i do hope you enjoy it as much as i enjoyed making it, i tried my best to make it good, and for me to sound good, frustrated singer blah blahs. hehe. Its already a year old song, and it still makes me smile whenever i hear this.





IMAGE OF YOU
11.06.09
Music and Lyrics by ASH677 and Cloud Airheart

I opened my eyes this morning
And there you were still sleeping
One hand outstretched to mine
The other cuddling our pillow

I took your hand, led it to my face
A warm tender comfort, ill surely miss
Nights from now on, youll just be a silhouette
Its just me and an image of you

Chorus:
And to wake up empty handed
No morning kiss to cherish
No tight hug that surely melts
My heart and soul
Its just me and the old radio
And your static voice on the phone
And an image of you
In my heart and soul

Before my eyes closed last night
You told me not to worry
Caressed my face, with a butterfly kiss
Wiping my tears, saving my eternity

Walking alone, driving alone
Coming back home will be much harder
To see an empty chair, empty home
Its just me and an image of you

Chorus:
And to wake up empty handed
No morning kiss to cherish
No tight hug that surely melts
My heart and soul
Its just me and the old radio
And your static voice on the phone
And an image of you
In my heart and soul

Sunday, September 26, 2010

Introducing Me



I instantly fell in love with this song and the Movie too (Camp Rock 2)! I watched it last week and Joe Jonas, (of course gorgeous as usual) and Demi lovato (so pretty) made me feel in love again, plus Nick Jonas and his love interest.

I like this kind of movie. Mga pang teenager. haha. Maybe, just maybe i havent experienced such kaya naeexcite ang senses ko when i watch movie themes like this and oh, the love at first sight and falling in love themes, oh boy you have no idea how much i wanted to experience it. the true one of course.

'My Favorite Song', 'Wouldnt Change A Thing' and 'This is Our Song' are Love! =)

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

[Epilogue] The September Song

(Repost, included the song)

[Prologue] THE FRIENDSHIP CODE
[i] ANOTHER SKIPPED MEAL
[ii] DANIEL’s LICENCE
[iii] First Come, First Served
[iv] FAST FOOD CHAIN
[v] THE BIGGEST PROBLEM IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD
[vi] COLD COFFEE (k)NIGHT
[vii] COLD COFFEE (k)NIGHT - Epilogue
[viii] BLUE RIVER: Entre'Acte
[ix] BLUE RIVER: A Sad Hue of Blue
[x] NO GOODBYE's


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[Epilogue] The September Song

Nature knows how to love
like lovers in a dance
Lifes a party, never stops
and wait for those who are sad

It was my first serene night after what has happened in the old pages of this life’s history. At last I have learned to let go, I really don’t know what has happened or what I have gained but at least im not troubled anymore. There comes a time that I encounter his name and I feel a little jolt in some bloody muscle inside, but It’s a strange sound now, not musically relevant nor an orchestral symbolism of something grand. The world indeed cant stop for someone who is sad and broken, it would continue to revolve around its axis never minding people who definitely will be left behind.

I woke up remembering the previous night, the night I burned the letters, deleted the messages, threw memento’s and cut all the strings attaching me with someone.

Grains of feeling scattered
all over the haunted bridge
Street filled with fools,
like distant thunders
Striking our hearts at glance

It wasn’t easy, picking up the feelings scattered in the floor. Its like picking a million tears, not wanting to be part of you again and you just ended up, mopping the floor dry, not wanting to slip down and hurt your ass. But you'd wish it would happen. I used to wish it would have been that easy. Its easier to be beaten up, every inch of the human flesh than to be in pain in that particular small part of the body.

I woke up a different person now. Shaved, clean, unbiased. Bruised, jaded, burned out no more. Looking at the mirror, I still have my self and that’s all that might matter in this life. Im my own hero after all. All the others left are strangers ready to strike a pose in someones life.

The August night melts
like the stars are clouded by mist
You seem so close like September’s grin
then cry all over again

Time flies so fast. It seems eternity that we parted from each other. You never said goodbye- when I said ill see you soon. You never said you cared – when I said I need you. You said nothings gonna be the same again – when I finally blurted out how much I have been through because of you. Those were your weapons that broke my fortress. I never really wanted anything that can harm someone nor making my stronghold strong. I really never really cared about myself. It seems im at the moment they call 'my Another Now'. A Now without you, A Now that only has me in it. The August is so far away, you were my September, and its ends tomorrow morning with a grin. You used to be the road that leads me home, now that road is blocked. I ve learned an alternate route, an alleyway without you.

Then I held your hand
upon my empty hearted chest
I saw you as the smoke ascends
need to forgive, ill never regret

On my way to our meeting place, by choice I passed by your apartment. I did what I could to reach out to you previously, I know you know that I never abandoned you. But you never budged…

And then there you were, at last i saw your smiles. Andrew welcomed you back in his life. May be that was one of the reasons… Maybe you really don’t need someone like me anymore. I was like what you call people who's just pestering you around, an IPIS of sorts. you've fought a tough battle and I was glad you were smiling, im not sure if youre victorious, you never gave me the chance to know the real story.
I forgive you, maybe in time ill learn how to forget too.

For the last time, below the shade of the clouded sun I whispered my goodbye.

The plane awaits for me to board,
counted reasons- one to nine
To leave this place,
beneath the sand lies gold,
can you be mine?

Ive flown my way towards the meeting place. I know now. Ive learned now.

I know now that life maybe unfair but its still beautiful and to finally realize its beauty is one of the reason we continue to live.

Ive learned now the reason why people kept on loving even though it almost always end up breaking our hearts. Because not loving at all is killing our opportunity to enjoy the reason and purpose that God has given us. We were created because of love, and thus we should live by it, full of love. Not loving is like not living this life at all.

Ride the clouds, over uneven hills
like a baby on a coaster ride
Just whisper, the echo and the wind
will deliver the unsung surprise

I started to smile. I was riding the clouds once again. No strings attached anymore. Free though unloved by someone but full of it nonetheless. I understand now, wherever my feet will take me, ill never be alone. I know someones waiting for me to come back.

I arrived at the meeting place. The place my mom told me about last night. She told me that Someone wanted to meet me here. I was surprised that someone turned out to be someheavenly troupe. I wasn’t alone after all. Though ive lost someone I hold dear, I still have more important angels that will never leave me. mom was there all smiles, Daniel and Karen, dearest to my heart were there. Brian and Brix-full of love, was shouting my name. Jake and Janus, was waving their hands in glee. JR, my crush was there too, showing off his sparkly teeth.

“Hello!” my heart whisphered.

And so a tale of love and loss ends, to start a new life worth living and worth reminiscing.

I am like your dying month of August
And you are my September Song
Unspoken words, like wet candles, wont burn again
Cant be reborn like the October monsoon...


[the end]


Tuesday, August 31, 2010

The Promise (Serah's Theme)



Make my wish come true
Let darkness fade to light
Show me there's still hope,
Show me it's not over
Battles we can win,
Our struggle lies within
Will we live to greet the dawn
Love will not leave you
Hate will not heal you
Promise me one day that peace shall reign

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Paradusdos


Paradusdos, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

Isa sa pinagkakaabalahan ko tuwing weekends o day off ay ang magluto. Hindi naman ako kagalingang magluto, pero marunong din naman kahit papaano. Simulat sapul kasi mula nung college pa, dahil sa sobrang hectic ng pag-aaral o sa trabaho, umaasa na lang ako sa de-lata o pancit canton o yung mga madaling lutin gaya ng paprito prito ng mga isda o itlog o hotdog. Nung una kong trabaho sa Antipolo doon talaga ako natuto na magluto talaga. pero simple lang naman ang niluluto ko dati. natutunan ko sa kapatid kong si Piolo na kasama ko sa partment sa Antipolo ang mag gisa, magpakbet. Bonus nga lang yung inuuwian niya ako ng Chow king meal (kasi sa Chowking sya nagwowork). Dahil likas naman talaga ang katamaran ko sa kusina at minsan sa paglilinis, umaasa na lang ako sa kanya lagi kung ano ang kakainin namin, hehe.

Tapos napalipat nga ako dito sa Saudi. ganun pa din sa unang 2 taon ko, umaasa lang naman din ako kay Pareng Totoy Bibo. Nagbibigay lang ako ng budget weekly tapos sya na ang bahala sa aking pang araw araw na pagkain. Tinutulungan ko naman siya magluto, sa kanya ako halos natuto ng mga matitinding ulam. Pininyahang manok, kaldereta, spaghetti, kare-kare atbp. Sus, anlaki ng utang na loob ko sa kanya. Makalipas ang ilan pang taon at nag sarili na rin ako, at doon nga nagpatuloy ang pakikipag kaibigan ko sa mga fast foods at mga pagkaing matataas ang MSG at preservatives. Susme naman, antindi naman kasi ng trabaho ko dati 7am to 7pm na from staurday to friday. kung mag pahinga man isa hanggang 2 beses lang sa isang buwan, so no choice talaga na umaasa ako sa mga de-lata at paprito prito galore.

Dahil na rin sa request ko na ibahin ang schedule ko, ayun nagkaroon ako ng libreng oras at one day rest day. Ayun ginugugol ko ang libreng oras sa paghihilata, paglalaro ng PS3 at pag weekend nagluluto ako ng isang putahe na, ipapakain at ipapataste test ko sa mga magagaling magluto. hehe. Maituturing ko specialty ko yung pininyahang manok kasi iyon ang malimit kong lutin na dati pa. lately nasarapan sila sa Sinigang na bangus, Kalderetang baka, Adobong manok. Yung Spaghetti hindi ko pa perpek eh. hehe.

Anyhow sunod kong titirahin ang Kare-kare, Sopas, Beefsteak at kung ano pang maisuggest nila Pareng Ram at ni Pareng Bhong. Ayun nga lang ambilis ko makalimot sa mga ingredients, ahahaha. Pero nag ienjoy ako magluto lalo na pag nagugustuhan nila luto ko.

Yun nga palang picture sa taas ay ang niluluto ng inay ko na Paradusdos nung una kong vacation. miss ko na ang mga Inay sobra.

=)

Monday, August 16, 2010

Payong

Transparent umbrella, originally uploaded by HELLER_Photography.

Mataas ang sikat ng araw, ngunit ang init na dulot nitoy nakakapagpalubag loob sa aking pusong nanlalamig. Sa panahon ng tag-araw dumating ka sa aking buhay, una pa lamang kitang nakita kakaibang init na kagad ang naramdaman ko, mas matindi pa ang dulot nito kaysa sa ligayang dulot ng haring araw, mas maningning pa ang kinang ng iyong presensya kaysa sa pilak sa gitna ng arawan. Saya ang dulot ng tag-araw, hindi kinakailangang magbilad sa sikat ng araw, maraming puno ang magkakanlong sa atin, habang ngiti at tawa mo ang aking laging pinagmamasdan. Sa tag-araw natin nakita ang ligaya ng buhay, at noon ko napagtanto na ikaw na nga ang nais kong kasukob sa papalapit na unos.

Dumating ang tag ulan, magkasama pa rin tayo. Pilit ko mang iwaksi ang damdamin ko sa iyo, mukhang tuluyan na akong nahulog sa iyo, hindi ito mapipigilan tulad ng ulan sa kanyang pagpatak sa uhaw na lupa. Pilit ko mang pigilin ito, ngunit ang tangi ko lang magagawa ay pagmasdan ang mala-likidong diamante na pumapatak… isa, dalawa, hanggang laksa laksang tumulo, para bang lumuluha ang langit. Lumalakas ang buhos ng ulan, nakatago na rin ang haring araw. Pinangako ko sa iyo na palagi kitang dadamayan sa lahat, iyon ang pangakong aking tutuparin. Nababasa ka na ng ulan. Nilapitan kita at pinasukob sa aking payong, ngumiti ka…

"Tuwing umuulan ay naalala tayong dalawa
Kay sarap isipin na may kasama sa buhay
Kapag bumaha...
Sukob na, halika ka na
sabay tayo sa payong ko
Hawak ka, kapit pa
Sa payong ko, magkasama tayo"


Kasukob kita sa aking payong, nililingon kita sa bawat saglit upang matiyak na hindi ka nababasa ng ulan. Sa liit ng payong ko, natutuwa ako at nagpupumilit tayong manatiling tuyo sa gitna ng bugso ng panahon… Ngunit mukhang lumalakas ang hangin pinilit kong igawi sa iyong bahagi ang kabuuan ng payong, di baleng nababasa ako ng ulan bastat nakikita kitang tuyo at ligtas, maligaya at umiibig. malamig na pakiramdam ang dulot ng malungkot na ulan... Tila may hinahanap ka sa malayong dako, hindi mo nakikitang nababasa na ako, pero wala yun sa akin, hindi mo man ako nililingon, masaya ako at kahit ilang saglit ay nakasama kita. Sa anino ng iyong mga mata, napagtanto kong siya pa rin pala talaga ang mahal mo.

Dumating na ang hinihintay mo, at nasa kabilang kalye sya, hinihintay ka… Sinabi ko sa iyong OK lang… Tinawid mo ang kalsada at dala dala ang payong ko, sa iyo naman talaga yan eh, simula pa lang, sa iyo ko na inialay ang napakahalagang bagay na iyan. Basa na ako sa ulan, nilingon mo ako at nakitang nakatingala, nginitian kita at sinabing “mag-ingat kayong dalawa, huwag kang mag-alala sa akin”, kasunod ang isang ngiti… Nakita mo kaya na sa kabila ng ngiting iyon, tumutulo ang luha ko sa gitna ng ulang pumapatak sa aking mukha?

Monday, August 9, 2010

PREFIX


Burned Forever, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

By Cloud Air Heart
09.08.10


Burned forever
The cold strings of laughter
Let the fresh teardrops
Rot on the ground.
Your lies’ survival
Led to a heartbeat’s death
What the fuck is friendship
If were mutilated.

Used my life
They’re yours somehow
The way you own the clouds
Dried that bloody round

Forever was the word
That was lost in the dark
The ending was written
Before these lines arrived
And I was the man
That’s worth leaving behind
Not wanting this waiting shed
To be your resting ground

A mangled spirit
In search for pleasure
A predator on his knees
Enamored prey awaits his demise
A helpless angel
On a lonely plight
But beneath his halo
Lies a wicked heart.

Ill drift away
Exhale me now
Fly my heart up in the air
On his way to the clouds

Salvage the memories
Of the lonely teardrop?
To moisten the wound
Or to bring us our doom?
Save the laughter
From burning forever?
To bring back the frozen emotion
Or to burn us till our expiration?

Forever was just a stupid word
Its just me and the ghost of your lies
The way you died without goodbye
The way I bled the pain inside
While your name spells my sadness
Mine explains the reason why
And His is the only prefix from heaven
That changes the meaning of my life

His is the letters from up high
That makes this waiting worthwhile.

Saturday, August 7, 2010

LIHAM NG PAG-IBIG

Una pa lamang kitang nakita, nabighani na ako sa iyong kakisigan. MAHAL na kita sa una nating pagkikita. Kahit na may kaitiman ka, napakaganda pa ring pagmasdan ang balat mong napakakinis. Napakaganda ng iyong mukha. Akala ko pa nga ay napakahirap mong abutin, pero sinabi ko sa sarili ko na gagawin ko ang lahat mapasaakin ka lamang. Ginugol ko ang aking mga oras sa kakaisip ng mga paraan na maglalapit sa ating dalawa. Minsan ginagawa kong araw ang gabi upang mapatunayan sa iyo ang aking pagmamahal, nagtrabaho akong mabuti upang makaipon, para rin sa iyo. At nuon ngang ika-4 ng Agosto 2010, ipinaubaya mo ang iyong sarili sa akin.

Minahal kita ng lubusan. Lagi kitang pinakikinggan. Hindi tayo mapaghiwalay. Kahit sa pagtulog lagi tayong magkatabi at magkaulayaw, pasensya na kung minsan ikaw ay aking natutulugan. Ang mga barkada ko nga ay naiinis na sa akin dahil ikaw lang daw ang aking pinakikinggan. Ikaw ang laging kasama mula bukangliwayway hanggang takipsilim.

Dahil sa aking pagmamahal sa iyo, ako ang nagaaruga sa iyo na iyo namang ikinatutuwa. At ikaw naman, laging dala dala ang ating mga larawan upang ipaalala ang ating pinagsamahan. Kung nababagot naman ako ay nagyayaya kang manood ng sine. Higit sa lahat minahal kita, kahit na minsan ay pinaglalaruan kita, naiintindihan mo naman ang dahilan kung bakit ganun ako sa iyo. Alam ko minsan nasasaktan ka na sa mga papindot pindot ko sa iyo, pagkurot kurot ko sa iyo. Dahil dooy hindi mo maiwasang maubusan ng lakas na animoy tuluyan mo na akong iiwan. Ngunit matapos ang ilang oras ay bumabalik ka rin kagad sa aking mga PALAD.

Ang mga musikang hatid mo ang siyang nagpapawi ng aking lumbay at lungkot kaya naman tatagal ang ating pagsasama. Alam kong marami pa tayong pagdadaanan, lalo pa’t nalalapit na ang ating pag-uwi sa Pilipinas. Baka pagnakita ka ng aking mga kapatid ay hingin ka sa akin. Hindi ka naman siguro magagalit kung ipapahiram kita diba? Sasabihan ko naman sa kanila na ingatan ka dahil NAPAKAMAHAL mo. Basta ipinapangako kong hindi ka masisira dahil malaking kawalan ka sa akin. Kahit medyo marami ka nang gasgas the best ka parin para sa akin. Nandito lagi ako para sa iyo aking PSP (PLAYSTATION PORTABLE).


Nagmamahal,

ULAP


PS. Ireregalo nga pala kita sa aking inaanak

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Your Smile, My Hello


Your Smile, My Hello, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

By Cloud AH 04.08.10

It looks like its gonna rain today
and my hair is so full of that gel
Id like for him to see that im trying
to be as cool as he was yesterday and today
That depends if hed look at my way,
or stop just to give that smile away
Yeah i look like a plant, that doesnt have a plan
and im stuck in this elevator with my heart on hand
Im scared as always.

Then you would ask me
"Hello Miggy, hows your day?"
Then that strange feeling, so overwhelming
and oh, its seems like forever, like a movie's slow mo
The fortress crumbled,
your smile, i said Hello

And yeah the reason why i wrote this
Is for him to know what i feel
For him to feel what he cant see
For him to see whats inside of me

I think a song is a good way to show things
Coz He dont know how i feel when he say "Hello"
He cant see hes so great on how he makes my face glow
Makes me always wear the smile, to make me worthy enough
But im ever the shy guy

Then you would ask me
"Hello Miggy, hows your day?"
Then that strange feeling, so overwhelming
and oh, its seems like forever, like a movie's slow mo
The fortress crumbled,
your smile, i said Hello

I guess i shouldnt be in a hurry
its not a race, the road to the heart

anyway, but i cant seem to wait,
for ive waited long enough, but
Im looking forward on the day
The day we learn to find each other
and not to just wait and then we can start
to love and live again,
To have your smile with my every hello
To say that hello with love in our hearts

And then soon youd ask me
"Hello Miggy, hows your day?"
Then that strange feeling, so overwhelming
When we embrace and kiss each other
Who knows "US" might really happen
From then on our love story will start
and we would never put an end.

Monday, August 2, 2010

How To Make Someone Stay


Black Morning's Only Hope, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

How To Make Someone Stay (Previously known as Ella)

18.09.07

It starts when you’re inspired
Either filled with sorrow, the pain of life
The joyous chorus, friends can vibe
Your hand then reaches for the pen to write

Like a roller coaster ride
Too much ups with constant lies
Too much downs you cannot hide
Round the heart, cracks will unite

*I can reach your hands
Even though your lands away
The way you make it everyday
And how the songs make me stay
I’m listening, do not stop now
And we will keep our vows.

The rising sun gives hope
For the dying rhythm of the song to cope
Bind the words unite with rope
To seal our youth, though we will grow old

As the refrain comes to end
Will the joyous souls begin to die?
The promise forever etched in vain
If the brightly sun fails to give his light

*I can reach your hands
Even though your lands away
The way you make it everyday
And how the songs make me stay
I’m listening, do not stop now
And we will keep our vows.

**Every word touched me
And still the mystery is here
But when fate and love collide
On that masterpiece youll write
Another smile took your voice away
Oh my sweet Shade, im lonely
Your songs will be played
Forever in my heart

As the twilight comes
Our parting songs will give us strength
The bravery required for the coming pain
The warmth when cold starts its reign

*I can see your face
Even though your lands away
Teach me the way you make it everyday
And how the songs make me stay
I’m listening, ill listen forever
I know ill always will

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

The Anatomy Song


Ngiti, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

The Anatomy Song

I
The sun does not only shine on my face
But I also feel the warm embrace
From the ends of the hair to the heel
From the food on the lips to the anal scene
And the clouds brings not emptiness
On the eyes, the ears, the hairy chest
Brings only heightened chills
And all these lovely cheers

C1
The heart’s on a marathon
Brain’s HDD needs restoration
Stomach craves your sweetness
Eyes only see your cuteness
The nose misses your freshness
Ears are desperate for the voice
That makes this the right choice
Yeah they need you,
Baby I need you…

II
The rain that wets the cheeks at night
Is overpowered by the love inside
Enabling the senses to have that might
Hormones are acting up
Sebaceous glands are sleeping tight
And the organs enjoy the party lights
And loneliness is out of sight
Cause you’re now here inside…

C2
The heart’s on a marathon
Lungs deserve resuscitation
The liver needs your comfort
Hands are lonely without yours
Skin needs your touching
The lips can’t stop talking
Can’t keep him from speaking
(Your precious name)
Yeah they need you
Baby I need you…

III
Ive known you for a month or two
But my pulse, my nodes and secreted juice
My blood and my one and only cerebellum
Sings “It might be you”
Im hungry for that sweet caress
Ribcage needs embrace, nothing less
The lips they care for yours, no one else
OK, Perineum region be cool.

C3
The heart’s on a marathon
The voice box, on silent tone
Not flexible, my funny bones
Muscles are now dummy clones
Kidneys can’t avoid the forming stone
Veins, arteries, capillaries’ formation
Delivers the message, they’re not alone
Yeah they need you
Baby I need you…

IV
But now that you’re here beside me
It’s symmetrical- like serendipity
A reality as true as the flexible spinal column
Decoding the pancreas for all that reasons
The breath of fresh air that fills my system core
Refreshes the hypothalamus again, once more
Reminds the forgotten aorta and the heart
Chambers one, two, three and four!

V
Systems are now in order
Cardiovascular hearts you forever
Nervous won’t break our pact, never
Digestive, he craves for you, kindly share…

Ever active Mr. Reproductive,
Can make us very interactive
Skeletal’s blue print, you’re the missing clue
Integumentary will never feel forever blue…

A tight hug, my Muscles can now approve
Endrocrine secretes the needed groove
Sympathetic Lymphatic has something to prove
Excretory surely won’t eject our love that is so good

Yeah they need you Boo
Baby I love you…

=)


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For the past week I have been suffering from slight insomnia, resulting again to my acne breakout, dark circles around the eyes and bulgy eyebags. Its my fault anyhow. Given the liberty of two extra hours for some “Me” time (I have been working for 12 hours for the past 4.5 years) I always find myself sleeping at 5:30pm just to wake up again at 7:00pm to brush my teeth, wash my face and watch re-runs of Heroes, thus making it difficult for me to catch another sleep. Ok last night was different. For the past few weeks I was meaning to write something again because its been a while since ive written a poem or a song, and yesterday the universe conspired to give me that jolt of inspiration. I made it a point not to fall asleep in the afternoon after work so I busied myself with Plants vs Zombies, watched TV and the re runs and listened to some music. And then Ive heard Martina Mcbride’s song “I Love You” and it hit me, “yeah this is one of my fave song in the world”. It felt something like ‘finding a 500 peso bill on one of my old notebooks that I hid from myself a few years ago’ or ‘eating your favorite ice cream after so many years”. With an idea on my mind and inspiration clinging inside the heart, I think I hit the right emotional chords combined with my funny bones. And thus the Anatomy Song was conceived. Its just that I don’t have my guitar anymore, I cant put the chords in their proper place...

After Ive finished this one… it made me smile. Isang napakalaking ngiti. =D

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Softdrinks, Insurance, Spaghetti at Pag-ibig


Ikaw at Pag-ibig, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

Softdrinks at Pag-ibig

“’Date’ ba ang tawag dito?” tanong ko sa sarili ko habang naglalakad ako papunta sa ating tagpuan. Alas sais y medya ng hapon, katatapos lang ng review mo para sa board exam at ako naman ay katatapos lang din ng aking trabaho, late na ako sa lakad natin, galing pa kasi akong Antipolo. Pero nang magtagpo ang ating mga mata at nagdaupang palad ang ating mga kamay, isa lang naman ang napansin ko sa napakaraming emosyon na maaring mabasa ko sa iyong mukha, masaya ka at ganun din ako, malamang mas doble nga lamang ang kasiyahang nararamdaman ko. Ilang sandali pa ay binabaybay na natin ang madilim na pasilyong maghahatid sa atin sa ating upuan sa loob ng sinehan. Dala-dala mo ang aking biniling softdrinks at tangan ko naman ang popcorn na ating pagsasaluhan sa loob ng ilang oras na panonood ng sine. Hindi ko hilig dati na manood ng sine, bukod sa mahal ay ipapalabas din naman yan sa cable channels sa hinaharap. Pero dahil paborito mo si Spiderman, sumama ako na walang anumang pagtutol at isa pa makakatabi kita sa madilim at malamig na sinehan. Nagsimula ang palabas, iniabot mo sa akin ang softdrinks, nasa gitna natin ang popcorn. Busy ka sa kakanguya ng popcorn habang titig na titig sa screen, ako nama’y nakukuryente pag nagkakadikit ang ating balikat at pagnakakasalubong ang ating daliri sa bucket ng popcorn. Alam mo ba ang pinili mong popcorn ay medyo maanghang, nasa kalagitnaan pa lamang ng pelikula ay naubos ko na ang softdrinks. Lalabas sana ako para bumili ulet pero ibinigay mo na lang ang natitirang softdrinks mo sa akin. Napatitig ako sa straw ng softdrinks mo at inisip na ang mga labi mo ang lumapat doon… Yun ang unang pagkakataon na nalaman ko na mahal nga kita. Dahil sa halip na itinapon ko ang baso (na may larawan ni Spidey) at straw na pinaglamanan ng softdrinks mo, isinilid ko iyon sa bag at iniuwi sa bahay. Alam mo hanggang ngayon nasa cabinet ko pa rin sya at inaalikabok na.

Insurance at Pag-ibig

“Ok ba ang explanations ko sir?” Pagtatapos ng napakahaba mong litanya sa ibinebenta mo sa aking insurance. Ngingiti ngiti ka pa habang hinihintay akong magtanong. Paano kaya kung sabihin ko sayo na kahit walang eksplanasyon ang mga bagay na ito, bastat ikaw wala nang estse buretse. Unang buka pa lamang ng bibig mo ay napapapayag mo na kagad ako, pirma ko na lamang ang kulang. Balewala ang lamig ng aircon ng restawran pagkat ngiti mo pa lamang ay nasisilaw at napapaso na ako. Alam mo hindi naman ako mahilig sa mga Insurance, hindi ako marunong sa mga ganyang bagay, Wala nga akong plano sa hinaharap. Kuntento na ako kung anuman ang meron ako sa kasalukuyan. Ang mas ikinagagalak ko ay dahil sa pamamagitan ng Insurance na inaalok mo, mas mapapalimit ang ating pagkikita- isang beses sa isang buwan, pagkat kokolektahin mo ang kabayaran ko. Naganap nga iyon, sa bawat pagkikita natin nagpapang abot ang ating mga kamay upang iabot ang tunay na rason ng mga sandaling iyon. Ngunit batid sa iyong kaalaman mas higit pa doon ang aking dahilan, iyon ay upang makita ang ngiti mo, marinig ang boses mo at maramdaman na hindi ako nag-iisa sa mundong ito.

Spaghetti at Pag-ibig

“Ano nga, alin nga, pili na nga…” Pangungulit ko sa iyo. Namiss mo tiyak ang kakulitan ko. Natutuwa ka dati kasi bungisngis ako eh. Nakapila tayo sa Jollibee dyan sa may EDSA-Guadalupe malapit sa apartment na tinutuluyan mo. Katatapos lang ng shift mo at ako naman ay papauwi na sa Batangas. Limang taon ang binilang ng ating pagkakalayo. Nagtrabaho kasi ako sa ibang bansa habang ikaw ay nanatili at nagsusumikap sa trabaho mo dito sa Pilipinas. Malaki na ang pinagbago nating dalawa. Hindi na ako masyadong bungisngis, kumbaga mas seryoso na ako sa buhay. Nagbago na rin ang mga ngiti mo. Naaninag ko sa iyong mga mata, habang nakasakay tayo sa jeepney patungo sa apartment mo, ang lungkot na iyong nadarama. Ilang beses mo bang nasabi sa akin na hindi ka na masaya? Ilang beses mo rin nasabi na “OK lang iyon pagkat masasaya naman ang mga nakapaligid sa akin”? Kasing pula ng spaghetti na ating kinain ang mga pinagdaanan nating pagsubok sa ating buhay. Maaring kasing salimuot ng mga hibla ng spaghetti ang buhay nating dalawa sa mga nakalipas na taon na tayoy magkalayo. Wala ako doon noong kailangang kailangan mo ng kaibigan, wala ka din sa buhay ko noong sobrang lungkot at lumbay ang pinagdadaanan ko. Patas lang, ika nga nila. Sa kaunaunahang pagkakataon simula noong napatibok mo ang puso ko sa ating unang pagkikita hanggang sa sandaling naging matalik tayong magkaibigan patungo sa pagkakataong nawalan tayo ng saysay sa isat isa, maibabalik kaya ng ating unang halik ang mga magagandang ala ala? Mapapawi ba noon ang lahat ng ating mga sakit na nararamadaman? Maari kayang manatili na lamang tayo sa isat isa at huwag nang intindihin ang mundong puro pasakit lamang ang idinudulot? Maari siguro o baka panandalian lang na lunas iyon.

Ikaw at Pag-ibig

“Mahal kita at hindi na magbabago iyon…” Iyan naman palagi ang sinasabi mo pag magkausap tayo, pero bakit ba hindi ko maramdaman. Siguro kasing dami ng beses na sinabi mo iyon ay kasing dami o higit pa na ako lagi ang nagpaparamdam ng ganung damdamin, kahit walang mga salitang kalakip. Nagbago na nga ako. Humina na ang boltahe ng pag-ibig nung sa kauna- unahang pagkakataon, makalipas ang ilang taon, na tayoy magkatabi sa malamig at madilim na kwarto mo- mahina na ang kuryente nararamdaman ko nang magkadikit ang balat mo sa balat ko. Akala ko noon lubusan na muli akong mahuhulog, pero bakit hindi iyon nangyari? Iniisip ko pa rin ang sagot.

Kung dati ang pag-ibig ko sa iyoy hindi na kailangan pa ng ekplanasyon, ngayon hindi ko na madiretsa ang langit kung mahal pa nga kita o hindi na… hindi ko maipaliwanag sa iyo ang tunay kong nararamdaman. Dati kasi tuwid ang dinadaanan ko papunta sa iyo, pero bakit ngayon hindi na ako sigurado kung aling kalye ba ang tutunguhin ko, bali-baliko na ang landas papunta sa buhay mo.
Ngayong handa ka nang mahalin ako, ako naman ang hindi handang mahalin ka, pagkat hindi na ako ang dating nagmamahal sa iyo at hindi na rin ikaw ang dating minahal ko. Pero mahal pa rin kita, maniwala ka, imoprtante ka sa buhay ko. Ikaw naman kasi pinapili na kita dati kung ano ba ako sa buhay mo KAIBIGAN o KA-IBIGAN. Pinili mo akong Kaibigan kaya mula noon naturuan ko ang puso kong makawala sa mga kadenang inilagay mo sa kanya. Hanggang sa nakalaya na ako sa pag-ibig ko sa iyo, at naging kaibigan nga ang turing ko sa iyo.

Naalala ko nung nagpapaalam ako sa iyo na kung pwede na akong magkasyota. Syempre malakas ka sa akin gusto ko aaprubahan mo, umo-o ka naman kasi gusto mo din akong maging masaya. Pero sabi mo nga huwag ko nang sasabihin sa iyo kung saka sakali, masasaktan ka. Ewan ko ba sa iyo.

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Paano yan malapit na akong umuwi, mahahanap ko na rin siguro yung Taong hindi lamang sa sinehan ko sasamahan kundi sa lahat ng lugar na nais niyang puntahan, mga lugar na magpapasaya sa kanya. Mararamdaman ko muli ang kakaibang pakiramdam pag maglalapat ang aming kamay habang binibigyan ko siya ng softdrinks o habang magkasalong kumakain ng popcorn. Hahawakan ko ng mahigpit ang mga kamay nya, at hindi bibitaw, mga bagay na hindi mo nagawa sa akin… Hindi Insurance ang iaalok ko sa kanya kundi ang aking puso at buong pagkatao, iyon bagang hindi nakasulat sa papel kundi nakatatak sa puso… para malaman niya na totoo at tapat ang aking pag-ibig, hindi basta basta nabibili. At syempre sisiguraduhin ko na hindi kasinggulo ng hibla ng spaghetti ang magiging buhay namin, papatawanin ko siya araw araw at hindi kailanman papaiyakin…

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Eh ikaw paano ka kaya? Hindi na ako pwede sa puso mo eh. Unfair kay inaanak, kay kumare at pati na rin sa akin. Sana noon pa, kaso ngayon huli na ang lahat eh.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

My Dear Shade


Outshine., originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

My Dear Shade,

A soulmate. That’s what they call it when someone has that deep affinity to another person. Like you to me. But the magic of two souls being connected is only true when they mutually feel the same attraction with one another, which is not yet true for the both of us. Still I am here, admiring you secretly. An admiration that if counted by the hands of the clock will only last for an hour or two and then after that, it will be replaced by something more cutting-edge, something more profound, that something called love, a tortured and blissful love to you, only you.

Does my love for you show when we are connected by a measly internet connection? Yes indeed. But the feeling is more pronounced the moment the weak connection is interrupted. Yes indeed, I love you more when the truth makes me realize that we are separated not only by distance and time but also by the sun that burns our steed, the oxygen that we breath , the soil that see us weep and the water that sums up our tears. This love is more obvious when your image in my head is replicated a million times, never wanting to be erased, scattered in every corner of the brain, latched and locked in every way possible, making your smile an indelible ink on my soul, making your entirety an unblemished mantra that the mind can never forget. But what can an image do but submerge you in every dream that my subconscious mind creates. Nothing concrete, no evidence in dreaming, dreams are only a sting of truth of “it might or might not happen to us” not unlike the true magic of your presence. The pinch on my arms that leaves the skin red, the memories of the night as I saw the used, crumpled bed sheets, even a whisper of my name from your lips will have a tremendous meaning more than my most lucid dream about you.

A song goes “When you love someone so deeply they become your life…” But wait, there goes that word again, “love”. It is very unfair to that word to be used multiple times by me though it doesn’t at all apply to my condition. Love is always a blend between ‘me’ and ‘you’. It always takes two to love to form ‘us’. It is a feeling shared by two persons who somehow harmonizes each other’s personality, makes the other stronger than usual. They are a one soul trapped into two separate entities, or two different Lego blocks that perfectly fit together, or a uniquely compatible heart jigsaw puzzle. Two people who makes even the unrhythmic rhyme sound so good. But that doesn’t apply to the two of us. Instead of us were just measly me and you. Me who is always alone, trying to figure out how not to be like the wind, strong yet cannot be seen and needing to find away to escape this desert just to belong in the big crowd of a city where You live and to witness everyday how the sun accentuates your lovely face, how by your mere presence would make time (who has his very rude talent of making him so fast when you’re enjoying life) stop. Maybe, just maybe, when finally you realize I’m there beside you, you’ll finally hear the silent, calming, joyful bells. Somehow you’ll realize that your time stops too when were together.

Making it all happen is not an ordinary feat. It is not like just wishing it on a falling star or asking a flower by tearing its petals if “you do or you don’t”. It is not something that can not be magically charmed or transfigured nor can’t be dreamt to reality. I just have to believe in fate’s power that you will find in me what I found in you and together we would eventually find an unavoidable love, serendipity at its finest form. At dawn I will bring you flowers, those wild flowers that were picked before the sun shines accentuated by the moist of morning dew. I want to share with you the gentle breeze of the morning air. I want to marvel on how you stretch your smooth legs as you go down the staircase and be amazed on how you smile and laugh on my corny jokes. How’d I hoped that someday we might share the same wondrous captivation, this unexplainable admiration, the inescapable wonderment. I want to know and protect your deepest secrets and fulfill your hearts wishes and desires. Let me shine in your life when you are tired and sad, when darkness and fear clouds everything. I want to be the one who will trace your unswayed strings and play the chords of our soul’s symphony. I want to be the one to peal the soft fabric that touches your skin, to untie and relinquish all of what you are so that you would be free from those which make your body and soul weak, to enable me to share my heat and strength to you to never again be swayed by darkness and fear. At the end of the day I want to watch how the moon shines upon your perfect face and feel how glorious it is to sleep beside the only one that meant the world to me.

I want to have an unending love story with you. A love that can withstand any typhoons or tsunamis or disasters that nature can muster. A love that has grown in humongous quality that a single status on twitter would make us a trending topic or just a single entry about us on a blog would make millions of hits. A love story that would be told through masterpiece paintings or a critically acclaimed film or a Billboard No. 1 song, but neither the tweeps nor the bloggers, neither the painters nor the composers, neither the moviemakers nor the novelists can ever encapsulate or express what we have become, no one can ever explain how You and I, two souls became just one, just Us. No other people can explain how I will offer my life for you and die just to live again forever by your side because of our love. No one could ever convey how the world comes to an end because of the power of our tremendous kiss just to be made whole again after we make love…

I want you Shade; I need you in my life…

Please leave all the worries and fears behind, I’m here patiently waiting for you in this lonely shed. Please don’t delay, unless otherwise the time that you spent away from me makes our first meeting a more passionate and unforgettable event in our lives. It makes me wonder how bright would be your first smile, how deep would be your exhalations, how warm would be our first touch, how handsome you would be on our first date, and the way we would start the day together and end it with a growing love in our hearts…

Finally I realize now how I started living again when I loved you and I know no other forces in this world can ever end it.

Yours forever,

Cloud

Sunday, July 18, 2010

A Different Shade


The Rock Im Rockin', originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

There were those moments that I wake up in the middle of the night wishing it was already morning. I can’t stand to see you in my dreams. So tired of sleeping, wishing the cold bath of the summer morning can wash away all the memories of the unknown nights. Hating the mirror, angry at the face that will show up in front of me- afraid of how too much that I need to change just to get back on track and yes, normally live my life again. Forget about neither the sunblock nor the makeup, I have mastered to hide all of my scars and miseries with just one tiny armor- called smile. Though I’m not yet ready to face the new day, what can I do but charge on the battle unprepared each and every day of this life.

I can walk with my face up now, tears learned to contain themselves, away from the sunlight- but after the curtain falls and the show ends, sometimes they form different streams on the flesh- from that brown colored ball to the brown colored sand. That’s why I sleep without the lights, I am afraid to see their plight.

I can talk normally now and my fragile voice obeys me, persistent he has been, to forget the music of your name, the sweetness of how it rhymes with my love, the sound of it that rhymes with mine and how it crushed it into tiny little pieces. But even the obedient voice can have his flaw, and that is you. But now he learns how to speak your name, a name that is only a combination of letters no more, no less… only a word without meaning.

I can almost taste what we have become, and it is bland without even a tinge of excitement or thrill. The sweetness was actually artificial only, not genuine, not natural. It was only fabricated by the heart to believe that there was actually something true between the both of us, but there aint really. It was only good enough for a certain period just like all manufactured delicacies that we ate at the classy restaurant. And after the shelf life has expired, we were useless, tasteless-yes, but deadly, it has no value whatsoever, what a pity.

I can talk about you now, I don’t cry anymore. I can laugh a bit louder without you. It is a payment to all those forgotten happiness that you have taken away… Joys that I have permitted you to take away from me…

But things change. Waiting was my cup of tea… And as I wait in this lonesome world, I started to see a different hue, a different shade, a different sunrise, a more glorious sunset. I remembered to see the blue sky and how it makes me closer to the people who truly love me, the people that in my selfishness I have taken for granted, even forgotten for a while. I started to see a different shade of the life I should live for myself and not for you, a different Shade that I should wait… a Shade that I should search, the Shade that deserves my love, my everything, my life…


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Someone said that love breaks everything, makes the heart fail, ruins life, even kills. Nobody is exempted and no one will survive. But I got over you last night…

My eyes learned to dry the well that contains my tears…
My voice finally forgot the music of your name…
My ears cant remember the rhyme of our names
I forgot the way my love for you feels…
I cant recall the taste nor the smell of the pain after you left…

And yes im still alive.

I can almost feel the new wind now and how it warms my soul…
and Im almost healed now…

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Like a rock that looks upon the horizon… Scorched by life’s relentless heat, frozen by loves twisted chill and tortured by agonizing loneliness - ill patiently wait for my Shade.

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Hope Outside the Misty Glass Window

You’ll wake up one day and realize that the world has turned so dark that there is no difference between eyes closed and eyes wide open. It would seem that you have been alone all this time just like the night before and the days that were already gone. No one will wake you up, no friends to text you back, no family to reassure that you are still home, no teacher to appreciate your hard work, your boss will hate your reports, eager to let you go for you have proven youre just a liability. You’ll feel hope is all but lost and will never be found in this array, the world has turned its back on you, no shine, no light, no warmth and no assurance that there is still tomorrow. Just black and cold.

Will there still be reasons to go up and fix your bed, wash your head and run ahead of traffic just to get through another worthless day in your life…? Yeah sometimes it feels like shit is in your head, really.

Then you sit in one corner, the place where you used to feel heaven, but now just feels hell (well that’s the prize to pay when reminiscing good old days which will never happen again, bitterness kicking in), and you see your friends chatting merrily, people on the other corner laughing so hard it makes you sad, lovers holding hands as they spread the love around the street. And then you wonder why can’t you be like them…?

What the hell happened, what have you done wrong, have you inflicted so much pain to someone in the past to deserve this fate...? you ask yourself...

Why cant you be happy when you buy a new phone to connect to people, to friends, to love ones? or the newest gadget to boot? Why do you feel sad to know that someone is happy with somebody else? Why cant you fill your cup of happiness with the one night stand that happened to you the night before or the nice little chat you have in a party that you attended a week ago? You still feel empty whenever you hear that the boss has commended your report with the thought that there is no significant someone to congratulate and kiss you? You thought you have let go of the past just to realize that you haven’t when by chance you pass by the street when you and him have declared youre all over and done…? Why does the pain still linger in your system that all incoming happiness, have been one by one murdered, killed. The pain leaves a hole in the heart never wanting it to be filled with happiness.

On the bus, going home, you cry. The misty glass window of the cold bus blurs your vision and it hinders you to look outside the window to see the flickering hope that the darkness has in stored for you. Though the pain in your heart has left a gaping hole in the heart, it never failed to put a stopper in the drain of your eyes. You feel the intense emotions building up and the body, you thought was strong enough to contain it, weeps. You let them fall in your cheeks and unto your sleeves, leaving them to trail their rightful way from your eyes to the ground, wishing someone might wipe it for you, wishing that this someone is the one that made you cry.

You come home, and burns your food to reflect how burned out you have become and how messy this life can be. You turn the music so loud it hinders you to hear the hearts howl of pain and numbs the ear so that it could forget how the wind spells out the name, a name you yourself don’t want to forget. You read lots and lots of books to occupy the mind just to be reminded one more time about how you danced in the moonlight and how he has promised you the moons and the stars of the night. You’re heart is broken all right and it made you tear up your whole being, into tiny little pieces like a jigsaw puzzle that might take years and a special help to be put back together again, because you believe by doing so makes you feel the reality kicking in and brings you back to life once again. But what if the wind blew so strong it scattered the pieces to faraway places, what a nightmare, what darkness have you brought upon yourself.

In the silence of the day, in the darkness of the night, someday, in time, pain will subside. Youll have the reason to wipe the misty glass windowto enable you to see the little sparkling hope in the street. There is no need to burn the food you eat. Someday deafness will not be an option, no need to forget anything. Someday youll be fine, everything will be ok, things will turn out quite well, and youll again start to smile and see the beauty even immediately after you open your eyes from the scary night. In time.

Soon enough youll learn that hope has never left you at all, its like the wind that is caressing you at the face, sometimes slaps you, yes, when youre numb and crazy. Sooner or later youll learn that there is one thing that really matters in this world, the only one reason why the world still turns in its axis- love. Someday youll learn that love never wanted to harm anyone, its just the people that misuses it that turns the ordeal so hard for other people… One day we will all realize that quite inexplicably Love really fades during the solitude, cold night; for some it is just lost... but lets just always remember that being lost is so close to being found... but then of course Love in its truest form can be found, it is simply a matter of time. Once it is with us, even if the person who made us feel that truest form leaves, Love's warmth will linger on us forever. Let love open your eyes to the beauty of life, its even evident in the darkness of the darkest night, you just have to open your heart to see it.

Maybe someday, youll experience the pain again, and hopefully youll understand that without it we cannot appreciate true happiness, that all things that are easily achieved are not meant to last. Hope is always up, so get out of bed, fix your life and live your life to its fullest potential - that is to Love.

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Of Acnes, Forgotten Wishes, Old Songs and Love


Sprout, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

It’s already 11pm and I can’t sleep. I used to sleep late yes, but since the acne on my left cheek is starting to make an uninvited appearance again makes me think otherwise. Indeed it’s a wise decision to sleep early as possible to prevent acne explosion of which I’ve deduced is due to my lack of sleep and stress.

But tonight’s a different night. I was about to go to sleep when I decided to listen to old OPM songs to once again be lost, eyes closed and hands above my heart, to somewhere I always wanted to be- a meadow with only the stars providing weak solitude lights. I used to do this when I was young, and carefree, when the entire world was just a playground, when shooting stars were fireworks that I used to count and make simple wishes. Those forgotten wishes, whether they came true or not, is not the question, but instead to what place the lost innocent feelings of the young me has taken refuge, the lost and distant me- as I was below the twinkling lights, as the old radio hums old songs speaking of true love and broken hearts.

And then it played, ‘the song that made me fall in love with you’. The one song that can relate to how much my old self wanted to make you love me too. The only song that reminds me how good and kind it is to love and how difficult it is to let go. But how come that my past with you is intertwined to my past with him… How can my history book combine my happy chapter with you with my tragic and heart rending arc with him… I am sorry but I cant even grasp the reason why. I can only guess.

Maybe our story happened for me to be prepared for his onslaught. Maybe you were the GOOD in the balance between good and evil. I hate to deduce that he is on the other end of the scale, but the unspeakable act that he has done to my soul, speaks otherwise.

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Ive read in an article, some months or a year back, that before we can grow up we must fall in love three times. The three “musts” in my own interpretation:

Once we must fall in love with someone who we believe to be perfect. The person who would be our ideal partner, qualities we almost always wanted to have, that someone so surreal that its like a dream standing, sitting, talking with him… and then at the end of the day, when finally he leaves and close the door with finality we will know that no one is perfect, that we should not be tied and belied with all those false interpretation that being perfect is always good. We will eventually realize that we too should be treated well, though imperfect, the way we deserved to be treated.

Once we must fall in love with our best friend, in turn breaking the strong bond of love called Phileo as it is replaced with a fragile bond called Eros. After the friendship is broken forever, we will eventually know the true meaning of companionship, trust, and compassion. At the end of the road we will know who our true friends are, and the thin thread that separates the great thing called friendship from all the other nonsense things.

And once we must fall in love with someone who mirrors our emotions, qualities and dreams. Through him we will know who we truly are as a person, as a lover and as a friend. Through him we will know what we really need in this life and what we wanted to become.

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I think I get it now, what that article meant. I fell in love with Sonny whom I always thought was perfect. He was the reason why I rarely admire people, he was indeed ideal, one of a kind… all the qualities I always wanted to have are with him, and thus I loved him. But in the end I wasn’t the perfect one for him. Through him I’ve learned how to love, how to hold on to the feelings and how to wait without even knowing if the road I travel alone is a dead end or not.

I fell in love with Lean whose name was synonymous to the word friendship, whom I always thought would never leave me. But after all things were said and done, I woke up one day alone, the bond of friendship, Phileo, broken forever. Through him I’ve learned how to love and lie at the same time, how to laugh and cry in unison, how to give without expecting anything in return, how to hold on to a promise only to be broken by the infallible truth that not all people who seems that they care, really do care… that not all people who speaks of true friendships, are really genuine. I’ve learned that lies can be intricately woven into situations of valor, of love, of need, of friendship.

I haven’t fallen for someone who mirrors me. Who knows maybe I’m grown up already and need not find this person. Maybe as I stare in the mirror numerous times in the morning I already knew what I wanted, who I am and who I wanted to become. Maybe.

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And now I realize that, even though we have the right to be protected from pain we do not have the right to cause the sufferings of others even if it means to be free from it. After what I have been through, I’ve realized it is easy for some to use all efforts to divert their pain into the sufferings of others… on the other hand it is easy for the other half to be the one suffering if it means to alleviate someone from pain. It is indeed a great mystery that the ones we hurt are the persons who love and cherish us. And the people who hurt us are the ones whose love makes us go on, that someone we need the most.

Ive realized that saying sorry in the end of all things isn’t always enough to mend the things we broke, to pay all the memories we shattered. Sorry does not give us the right to continue to live and just leave all the mess behind. It only gives us the reason to start from the beginning, in hopes that as we trudge the road to forgiveness we will learn to change for the better, through this we too can learn to forgive ourselves. It is hypocrisy to say that you know how to love and you are in love when someone else is in pain due to the awful things that you have done. Indeed a sound and peaceful heart and mind can only be achieved when all the sins are absolved, chaos is forgotten, and crimes are given justice. But beyond all things, there is a concept called love and through it forgiveness hopefully would spring…

Indeed love is never a word that needs definition. Love is something that grows when cared and turns cold when left behind. It is a sprout of hope for a new life, ready again to brace the storm. It is a friendship that blooms forever, withstanding the heat of the sun or the cold and cruelty of the winter’s regime. It is only perfect in all aspects when two imperfect persons unite, lifting them up in the air. It is looking in the mirror, and realizing that this earth is filled with all sorts of persons, yes, different from one another, but shares a common mission- that is to love and be loved in return.

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Paper Weight


Paper Weight, originally uploaded by Cloud_AirHeart.

Ambigat bigat minsan ng mga pasanin dito sa mundo. Totoo, nakakapagod nang mabuhay na mabigat ang nararamdaman. Pero naisip ko minsan, siguro kaya dumating ang mabibigat na pagsubok upang pigilan tayong iangat nang ating mga pansariling adhikain, kumbaga sa pamamagitan ng mga pabigat na ito matutunan natin ang maging mapagbigay, mapagmahal, mapagkumbaba; malalaman natin na tao din pala tayo na nasasaktan; at tayoy nilalang para ang mga paa ay tumapak sa lupa at lumakad. Pag natutunan na natin ang mga iyon, maaalaman na rin natin kung paano iangat ang mga nagpapahirap sa atin sa Maykapal. Sa panahong iyon, ililipad na tayo ng hangin sa kalawakan, lalaya tayo sa mga nagpapahirap sa atin at matutunan naman natin kung paano ibuka ang ating mga pakpak at lumipad, sa lugar kung saan natin matatagpuan ang tunay na kaligayahan… Ngunit titigil ang hangin sa pag ihip, tayoy ibaba muli sa lupa, hindi upang mamighati at mahirapan muli, kasi alam na natin kung paano hawakan ang mga ganoong sitwasyon. Ibababa tayo ng ating sariling tadhana upang tayo’y pulutin ng isang nilalang din na magtuturo naman sa atin kung paano lumipad na walang hanging nagtutulak, walang pakpak na pumapagaspas. Paglipad na hindi kailangang umaangat ang mga paa sa lupa. Paglipad na kung tawagin ay Pag-ibig.



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Highway run
Into the midnight sun...
Im forever yours...

-Faithfuly, Journey


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Posted also here:
www.talaarawayyewan.blogspot.com

Sunday, June 27, 2010

The Road That Leads Us Home

In this journey, there will be so many people who will walk into our life. Some will inspire us to walk on, move up and climb our way to higher ground, but some too will cling tight- to ruin us, to make us suffer, to give us pain and make us cry. But keep in mind that we permitted them to walk beside us- as they permitted us to walk beside them too. Of course some will walk out of you when you are at the road of nothingness, lost in the middle of no where. But there will always be someone who will stay, the person who will be the ‘road that leads you home’- thus the task is to know who amongst the thousand footprints on the desert sand will weather the scorching heat, the villainous wind, the cruel cold of the winter morning, with you. There is always someone- when someone leaves, someone will arrive; when someone makes you cry, for sure one day someone will make you laugh and wipe the tears in your eyes; when all people forget who you are, there will always be someone who will always remember how you loved him and how you changed his life.

It’s never the destination that matters; it is the journey and the people beside you that make life a wonderful adventure.

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You’ll always be,
The reason why I’m so In love
Beyond the sands, I know you’re all I have

You’ll always be the ROAD THAT LEADS ME HOME
The one who gave me hope to carry on
In these twisted paths
I know I’m not alone
Even though BENEATH THE SANDS ARE GOLD
And my dreams started to unfold
What matters most
I know you’ll lead me home

- Cloud Airheart

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posted also here:
www.talaarawayyewan.blogspot.com

Friday, June 25, 2010

Adobong Pag-ibig

Lonely Heart

Parang kaylan lang na sobrang ma-emo ako. Ma-emo pa rin naman ngayon pero hindi na kasing tindi ng kaemohan ko dati na lahat ng kantang naririnig na-aassociate sa buhay ko, lahat ng teleserye feeling ko ginawa para sa akin, pati mga comedy na pelikula iniiyakan.

Nagsawa na akong magmaktol sa mundo kasi feeling ko hindi naman siya kailanman titigil sa pag-ikot dahil lang sa isang tulad ko na nasaktan at nasugatan. Kaya nagpasya ako pagkagising ko isang araw na ngingiti na ako at tatayo, at hahanapin ang mga pangyayari, mga panahon o mga indibidwal na tunay na magpapabuhay at magbibigay saya sa aking buhay, malay mo ako din pala ang kanilang hinahanap diba. Nagkatulungan pa kami.

Hanga ako sa mga nagmamahal ng lubos. May nabasa akong entry mula din sa mga ma-emong blog dito sa blog world: Kung nagmahal ka ng lubos sa isang tao na hindi ka naman minahal ng wagas, gaano katindi at kadalisay ang pag-ibig mo sa taong talagang nararapat para sa iyo... makes sense diba?

May narinig pa akong kasabihan habang nagiinuman ang aking mga Kaibigan.

"Hindi lilipad ang manok kung iisa ang pakpak. adobohin nalang natin kaya?"
(parang pag-ibig din, hindi lilipad kung iisa lang ang pusong gumagana, kaya ang ending adobong pag-ibig lang yun)

narealize ko kaya pala apat ang chamber ng puso ng tao:

yung unang chamber para sa pamilya
yung ikalawa para sa kaibigan
yung ikatlo at pinakaimportanteng bahagi para sa iyo
at yung isang bakante ay para sa isang tao na paglalaanan mo noon.

suma tutal para Ke BRO yung buong puso natin dapat. :)

kaya kung buong puso natin ang ibibigay para lamang sa iisang tao na aangkinin iyon, parang unfair sa mga kapamilya mo at friends diba, at mas unfair sa sarili mo at ke Bro.

Kaya yung Adobong pag-ibig na naranasan ko, masarap nung una, masaya sobra, pero habang nagtagal na at napanis - kahit iinit muli at muling pakuluan, hindi na maaring manumbalik ang dating sarap. At kahit kailan pa may hindi na pwedeng buhayin ang manok kung dumating na ang hinihintay nyang isa pang pakpak.

Siguro yung susunod sa aking buhay, hindi manok ang gagawin kong kahalintulad, this time KALAPATI na, para mala Anghel. Made in Heaven kumbaga.

Nagutom tuloy ako bigla. =D

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Waiting's End

by Cloud A. Heart, 28.02.10

I was there in that shed, waiting for you
Do i need cupid for a miracle to come true?
Strangers of the night say it wont begin
Stars in the sky, there they'll remain

Am I blinded by the darkness within me,
or Am I just numb coz of this sunless regime?
Lovers here say they envy me,
But its me who envies them, coz youre not here

Shadeless night
in ur eyes i found a blinding light,
it overcomes the dark thats me
you just cant see me,
but i see you shining in the dark
So let the warmth of the air dry my tears
Destroy all my darkest fears
Let it destroy the fortress' everlasting bond
Tonight might be at last, waiting's end

Give you all my darkness to reveal
What extinguishes the fire, let the spirit heal
Lovely in this shade, youve given me your shine
Burning eternally, not for sale, just for me

Used to be alone here, now your grip's so real
Used to be afraid of your light, now only warmth i feel
Used to be so weak inside, now youre my shield
Used to bes are gone, its time for us to live

Shadeless night
in ur eyes i found a blinding light,
it overcomes the dark thats me
you just cant see me,
but i see you shining in this dark
So let the warmth of the air dry my tears
Destroy all my darkest fears
Let it destroy the fortress' everlasting bond
Tonight might be at last, waiting's end

Posted also on: Waiting's End: Songs of Love and Loss

But Before You Go: Songs of Love and Loss

i created a new blog that will house my compositions/poems. So in just a click it would all be there. in the span of five years ive created a number of songs/poems,some of which already graced this blog, the others will be posted soon, if i feel theyre already worth posting or should i say if the composition fits the feeling of a certain moment of my life, a repetition of the forgotten emotions... =D

Anyhow But Before You Go was written three years back, actually ive forgotten the story of this song, but let me see… ive always been the one left behind, so i guess from there the song was made.

heres the new blog:
Waiting's End: Songs of Love and Loss

and heres the song:

But Before You Go
Music and lyrics by Cloud
22.07.07

You are packing your things
In the room, in our suitcase
You said youre tired of me
And you need a change of heart

While I sit down on the porch
Still cryin, still lovin you
I know that you are lying
Or its what I wanted to believe

But Before you go

Chorus 1:
Can you tie my two hands
So they can let you go
Im sorry I cant help but hold you
Can you shut my two eyes
So tears wont fall down
Im sorry I cant help but cry

I learned that you will leave the keys
Of the house and the SUV
You said you dont need them
And I need to move on

While I still hold on my dreams
I tried to hug you, then kiss you
Even as a sign of goodbye
Indeed, the saddest word in the world

But Before you go

Chorus 2:
Can you seal my red lips
So I wont beg you to stay
Baby I need you beside me
Can you leave your perfume
So I can smell you everyday
Ill dream of the day
(The day youll come back to me)

Instrumental

But Before you go
Can you give back the key
Of my heart, it wont open
It seems that you alone can do it
Can you give back my life
It was useless without you
Baby you are my everything

Saturday, June 19, 2010

With Him.

“Uuwi ako”.

It was already past 10 in the morning and I just woke up and went to the CR to pee when Nelo calmly spoken the silent words, just outside my room yesterday morning. The tone of his voice seems so melancholy and I knew that there was a deluge of emotions trapped inside him.

“Bakit, anong nangyari? pasok ka muna sa kwarto.”

From the redness of his eyes I assumed that tears consumed him last night. His eyebags clearly states that sleep wasn’t his companion too. All I knew in that moment was that he bought a new phone, the same model as mine, yesterday- from there I was lost.

“Ang nanay ko, pumanaw na…”
Isnt it so sad that the first call that you will receive in your new phone would be a news that would break your heart...?

There was a long silence after he professed the source of his sadness. I couldn’t even look straight in his eyes and say the correct words that a friend should tell a friend to overcome such loneliness.

“Awww. Condolence… Im so sorry to hear that Nelo, tell me what I can do to make you feel better…”

“Ok lang ako, baka umuwi ako bukas na bukas din…”

For all the nonsense things that I worry about, my worries weren’t even a fraction of what he was into. I tried hard to make him smile, cause that’s what a friend should do I suppose, ive helped him load some songs in his phone, just to cheer him up… offered him coffee and chocolate, and most of all be there for him, beside him in this time of loneliness…

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In that sober morning conversation with Nelo, I cant help but think about my Inay and Tatay too. To lose someone you love so much is so hard to accept. I remember my Inay’s messages the previous days begging me to reply on her text messages. The problem is, I don’t feel like texting anyone during the last few days only to find out that my local SIM card’s outgoing services already expired, and the moment I wanted to really text my Inay, I cant. So I braced and battled the intensive heat of the desert and rushed to the nearest store to buy a card, to enable me to send my love to them, my family. It was a heavenly feeling after I reconnected with them again, the lump in my throat was gone… all I need to do is go home and be with them and make them feel how much we love them, their sons.

I really wanted to help Nelo, for I feel for him, mothers have a soft spot in my heart. He will go home tonight to his family in Leyte and my prayers are with him.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Theme Song ng Buhay Nilang Mag-asawa

Circa June 2008

Si Joey, makulitensis syang kasama. Kaya naman pagkami ang magkashift sa trabaho puro kulitan lang ang nangyayari sa amin, at syempre, eto ang mga kakapiranggot na pagkakataon na ako ay tumatawa at napapangiti, kasi kahit gaano kalakas ang pang aalaska ko sa kanya at kahit na nakakaburyong na ang aking mga banat sa kanyang jokes ay hindi siya mapipikon, kung mapikon man sya, i ka cut salary ko sya. haha, joke.

Anyhow, kalabaw naming si Bangaw, bukod sa masarap kasama itong si Joey, nahihingan ko rin sya ng payo tungkol kay TOOOOOOOT, at sa sakit na nararamdaman ko tungkol sa TOOOOOOOT at ang mga takot ko sa pag uwi pabakasyon, kung makita ko si TOOOOOOT ano ang gagawin ko. Pero hindi nya ako masabihan ng TANGA KA kasi nga, kahit naman ganun daw ako, eh respetable naman ang aking stature, hehe. Pero alam mo aking blog, sa pagsasabi ko ng mga problema ko sa puso kay Joey, naiiyak sya at nafifeel nya ang nafifeel ko, mga linyang:

"may ganun pala..."
"mahirap hawakan ang isang bagay kung hindi naman para sa iyo talaga... sa huli bibitawan mo din kung kukunin na ng tunay na may-ari."
"dalawang bagay lang yan eh, mahal mo at mahal na mahal mo..."
"mali yun eh, dapat ang mga pangungusap magsisimula sa Ikaw at hindi Siya"

Eh minsan tinatanong ko rin ang lovelife nya. Kaklase ko kasi si Joey nung College sa ilang subject, ikinasal na ang mokong at may isang anak na sila na kakapanganak lang ng misis nya last august.... eh kaya kanina lang nag eeskobahan kaming dalawa at may naitanong ako sa kanya na isang napakainteresanteng malaman sa isang magkarelasyon:

Cloud: Uy Joey ano ang theme song nyong mag - asawa?

Joey: Wala eh, hindi naman uso sa amin yun...

Cloud: ano ka ba naman, walang ka thrill thrill ang buhay nyo kung walang something to look forward to tulad ng kanta na isang VISION sa isang relationship... gusto mo mag suggest ako....

Joey: sige ano ba ang maganda?

(eh di nag enumerate ang lola nyo ng mga magagndang theme songs...)

Cloud: Yung kanta ni Sharon Cuneta, patok yun dati ah...

"BALUTIN MO AKO NG HIWAGA NG IYONG PAGMAMAHAL, LIMUTIN ANG MAPAGLARONG KINANG NG TAGUMPAY"

Joey: Pwede, pero bakit naman si Sharon? Pili ka pa iba...

Cloud: Yung kay George Canseco, classic yun...

"ANG PAG-IBIG AY SADYANG GANYAN, TIWALA SA ISAT ISAY KAILANGAN..."

Joey: Masyado namang Luma yan parekoy.

Cloud: Hmmm eh yung kay Kuh Ledesma, yung pinakasikat nyang kanta?

"DITO BA? DITO BA? DITO BA? DITO BA, ha ha ha? Oh DITO BA..."

Joey: Bakit puro Dito Ba?

Cloud: yung kay Jessa Zaragoza na lang

"IKAKASAL KA NA... IIWAN NA AKONG NAG-iisa, sana pag-ibig sa akin lamang"

Cloud: Ahhh alam ko na, diba peyborit ng asawa mo si regine? ano nga ulet yung pinasikat nyang kanta....

Joey: SIge Fire!

Cloud: "URONG SULONG KA BAKIT BA GANYAN, URONG SULONG KA..."

o kaya yung kay ARA MINA

"AY AY AY PAG-IBIG, NAKAKAKILIG PARANG SINE, BAWAT EKSENA AY IYONG AABANGAN..."

Cloud: hmmm alam ko na alam mo yung kanta ni Gary V. SIkat na sikat yun... Kanta niya ito pagbalik mo sa Pinas...

"KAY TAGAL MO NANG NAWALA, BUMALIK KA PA, UMALIS... UMALIS KA NA"

Cloud: Oh kaya yung pinakasikat na kanta ni Sheryn Regis:

"LIPAD, ANGAT, PANALO KA, ANG GALING GALING MO, BILIB AKO SA IYO, KRYSTALA"

Cloud: Oh kaya yung Kantang hit na hit dati ni Martin Nievera:

"IKAW ANG ANG AKING PANGARAP, IKAW ANG SAGOT SA AKING DASAL... AWOOOOOOOOOOOO"

Joey: Ahhhh LOBO Yan. lols

Cloud: Ah sige seryoso na, yung kanta na lang ng Aegis, yung belted nila.

Joey: ano yun, Luha o Halik.

Cloud: Hindi yung pinakasikat nila:

"KAYAT IBIGAY NYO NA ANG AMING CHRISTMAS BONUS, PATI ANG 13th MONTH PAY, Para OK na OK..."

Joey: Niloloko mo na ako... hahaha


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really, times like this are rare. Smiling has been scarce now adays. ewan ko ba.

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Sa tinagal tagal ng aming paghahanap ng Theme song nilang mag-asawa ang sinaggest ko na lang kasi pihikan talaga siya ay yung patok na patok noon:

"Hoy, hoy, hoy, hoy, hoy, hoy. Hoy, hoy, hoy, hoy, hoy, hoy,"

Pero ayaw pa rin ng loko loko. kaya and ending nalang tutal pasko naman na...

"Kumukutikutitap, bumubusibusilak, ganyan ang indak ng mga bumbilya, kikindat kindat ang mga kirat, pinaglalaruan ang ating mga mata."

;)
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Eh paano naman Theme Song Ko?
Sorry wala akong themeseong, wahaha.

Ikaw ano ang theme song nyo ng asawa/partner mo o kung balak mong magkaroon ng asawa/partner ano masasuggest mo?